Wish you had taken the blue pill?

[Connecting with Sauce]

Not sure when I found project C but I was absorbing everything like a spounge but in recent weeks I feel like I'm in a movie and sometimes I just wish as I was as unaware as the other people... sometimes.

Last Friday at work I got a little too emotional with a close friend I've known for 12 years and got a really sharp e-mail in the evening that he didn't want to know or care!!! Even if it is true!

http://www.arrod.co.uk/essays/matrix.php

Like today I was buying loads of supplies for the coming weeks if it goes pear shaped. water, value beans **** like that... I felt a bit depressed to be honest and want it not to come to that...

Any blue pills left?

Roll on project venus with free energy and total enjoyment in what we do because this is getting me down... can someone feed me some light