Apology to Wilcock and Avalon

Dear all,

As promised, I would like to formally apologize to David Wilcock for using the term liar in my thread title. I do not believe that he is lying; I believe that he believes what he says - as do many of you. I believe some of what he says, and commend him on his bravery for saying it. I should have put more thought into that title, but did not, and for that I am sorry.

I would also like to formally apologize to Bill and Kerry for upsetting them (well, at least Bill) as bad as I did. My intent was to engage in spirited debate - which I got from many. For those who felt slighted, insulted, or abused, I truly do apologize. My formal academic training is grounded in argument; sometimes we history nerds get pretty vicious with each other at conferences, and in the journals (I've seen name calling break out at many a symposium). It is the dialectic I have cut my teeth on, and if this experience has taught me anything, it is that I should brush up on my diplomacy skills a little bit. It was never my intention to hurt feelings or inspire wrath.

However, I am angry. When one wakes up to what is really going on in this world, becomes aware of the collectively held lies, and stares into the abyss of a potentially nightmarish future for us all, well, if you don't get a little angry then you aren't human. On my search for truth, which is a journey shared with me by all on this forum, and countless others who are not, I just want to make sure that I am not replacing one set of lies for another, or, one set of mistruths for another. Most of the people who have sat in front of the cameras for Project Camelot are good people just trying to help. But at the end of the day, with no proof, no tangible evidence, the acceptance of their claims is tantamount to eating the wafer and drinking the wine - it becomes an act of faith. I am convinced that faith is what people settle for when the task of finding facts becomes too daunting. With that said, I let my anger spill out into a forum where it does not belong. I am sorry.

Many reacted negatively to my comments about Wikipedia, and while I respect your opinion, I am not sorry for that one. No matter how much or little you believe in the shadow government theories and the illuminati, anti-establishment propaganda does get published. I just went to the bookstore yesterday, and right there on the first shelf was Coopers "Pale Horse," sitting next to "Forbidden History," etc. I own em' all, and since beginning my journey have discovered lots of presses and other print media outlets that ask these questions. "Pale Horse" wasn't published by Oxford U-Press, but it was published - and that fact alone speaks volumes about this debate.

Anything read on Wikipedia or similar sites needs to be verified with the same scrutiny given a potential monograph. Eight year old Jimmy from Hoboken should not be considered as valid a source on say, slavery, as Ira Berlin - a man who has dedicated his entire 30+ year career to the study of slavery. Yet, on Wikipedia, Jimmy can edit Berlin. Forget Africa for a second, we have an entire generation right here in the United States who have access to huge libraries, and refuse to use them not because they reject the legitimacy of the corporate presses, but because they are lazy, don't have the attention span to read a book, and refuse to take the I-pod buds out of their ears long enough. Most of these kids are so tuned out that they don't even ask whether or not the presses are secretly controlled. And it sounds to me like that kid in Africa, and I'm not trying to be a smart ass here, has bigger things to worry about than deliberately tinkered-with articles on Wikipedia. The real trajedy of this kid's life is that he exists on a continent ravaged by the colonial powers, and then ravaged again by post-colonal dictators who build mansions instead of schools and libraries. Don't lay Africa's problems at my feet over Wikipedia; if I could wave my majic wand and set it all right for that kid, his family, community, and continent I would. But I can't. The point behind my Wikipedia statements is that anyone interested in doing real research needs get out from in front of their computers and get their butts to an archive, library, etc. - especially college kids in the Western world.

Again, I am sorry for insinuating in my thread title that David Wilcock is a liar. He is not a liar, and I defend his right to say whatever he believes. To Bill and Kerry, especially Bill, I am sorry for offending you as I did. You consider my posts abuse, which was not my intent, but I will respect this forum and post nothing else. I do believe, however, that there are some things worth arguing over - negative energy be damned. Project Avalon, I now recognize and respect, is not the place for it. I am genuinely sorry for the anger I have inspired. No matter what we all think, or believe, these are challenging times, and I hope we all make it through them together. I'll buy the first round of mead on the other side.