What Woke You?

[Carmen]

Dear Avalon Members,

A question, to those awake and those awakening,(guess that covers everyone)

What woke you, what is or was the catalyst that set you on the conscious journey. The conscious exploration of the mystery of spirit, of your souls journey/destiny?

With Loving curiousity

Carmen

[franciejones]

Not sure, it happened in 2006. I am guessing it was external...many awoke in 2006 from what I understand.

[Carmen]

What changed Franciejones. What were the outward manistestations of 'waking up'. Hope you don't think me too quizzy in this. I'm just curious. People are so individual in their response to matters spiritual. To me, we are definitely not sheeplike. Not when we are allowed or allow ourselves to freely explore.

[burgundia]

Already in my teens I found books about astrology, spirituality, mysteries of life,etc fascinating. But not many books on the subject were available in Poland then. Then I left Poland and lived abroad for several years where I had access to a number of books revolving around these topics. Then another strong push in that direction was my mother's death. I read so many books dealing with afterlife and what happens when we die. Then last year I saw "Zeitgeist" and an interview with David Wilcock and this all was mind-blowing for me. Since then I can't get enough, I wish I had more time to read everything I haven't read, to listen to everything I haven't listened to yet. It's like I want more and more information about these things. one little thing that also contributed to me getting really interested in that area is that I had a few prophetic dreams so I knew that there was something that I wanted to explore more.

[dagon]

its been a life journey for me, I remember talking to my mother as a young adult in tears. telling her I could feel that something was going to happen in our life time. and this life we all had was not what it was intended to be. and I couldn't shake it. my whole life has been a discovery of awaking. and have always been drawn to nature, and the unexplained. and thought of a utopian society. and as I matured. I was never satisfied with what I was learning. as a matter of fact I was seeking to disconnect with life feeling it was all backwards. and not having the tools and guidance to deal with such things. it took a while for me to get on track. I have always questioned the matrix. but to find truth in this world is hard. Im so happy to see parts of it now manifesting. and forums like this to pool bits and peaces. and to know Im not alone.



after all I am an aquarian.

[Carmen]

Fascinating folks. Once one starts on this journey the inner hunger has to be satisfied. One clue leads to another and your soul is sort of like the guiding hand on the rudder!! It doesn't let you go. The mystery of it all makes it exciting. Making known the unknown of us.

[Humble Janitor]

Discovering this site is what made me wake up. Otherwise, I would have just carried on in a boring slumber.

Mystery of Everyday Life for me, including

LAUGHS -

"Who's this Guy, Trevor?"
http://video.google.ca/videosearch?q=WHO'S%20THIS%20GUY%20TREVOR&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&rls=org.mozilla:en-GBfficial&client=firefox-a&um=1&sa=N&tab=wv#


PARLOUR GAMES/RIDDLES ETC - One thing I noticed was a little spy/crook/secret trick. Easy to do. NOW DRAG YOUR CURSOR OVER THE REST OF MY MESSAGE.

Can you see THIS? YAY!!

It's old, but still fun!!

[Seth Haniel]

Born awake

and well into it when I discovered 11-11

and my experience there :-
http://www.geocities.com/graham-stuart/11-11.html

still wide awake

[deb003]

I was on Maternity leave 6 months ago and I had so much free time while this anf I found youtube for the 1st time. i started browsing as a pasttime. I went into politics, then something came up about nwo, then ufo, then I listened to William Cooper talkking about MJ12 and then I had a huge panic attack for 4 hours. I woke and I have neer been the same.
My world as I knew has crumppled but I finally felt like I was myself and I felt that I was here for a purpose and not just to consume products.

[Carmen]

So deb003 it was having time to explore. What role has difficulties, trageties had in boosting members of Avalon out of mass consciousness. Initiations in the form of going beyond what you thought you were capable of?

Your thoughts are most appreciated

Love and Light

Carmen

[Egg]

Dying. Straight up. A near death experience brought home with terrible beauty that the world we 'live' in is a lie.

Ever feared death and dying? don't, because the next world is so beautiful it pains me to think I had to return here.

[Carmen]

Thanks Egg That would do it!! What role has or does initiation play in the awakening process? Our life experiences do push us on but it seems to me so many people live bland lives that just keeps them in a ticktock existance.

Has anyone read the book "Of Water and the Spirit" about a wonderful shaman from Bakino Faso, a landlocks country in Africa. In it he describes the initiation that the teenage boys are but through to connect with the spiritual realm. Many indiginous people have an initiation tradition. In the west we seem to have none.

[Egg]

Initiations? nothing at all to be honest with you unless it is of the more exotic variety that involve mind enhancing natural stimulants and chemicals OR one of the Native American initiations that make people endure hardship to forge their spirits.

[mudra]

My own journey started really at age 16. I followed the Hippie movement at the time. Many would go to India in search of wisdom and spiritual enlightment.
My first master was Gurdjeff than Castaneda, Lobsang Rampa and many others after that...I wanted to understand everything dealing with Spirit around the world.. until last one : Eckhart Tolle where I understood the best master you can find is yourself.
My own life has been a real challenge to the soul. Seven years ago I underwent a spiritual death which unabled me to be reborn brand new.
My real awakening I feel happened when I reached Avalon. This is where I discovered that as a soul Love is my foundation. Love is all there is.

Love yourself and be awake -
Today, tomorrow, always.

First establish yourself in the way,
Then teach others,
And so defeat sorrow.

To straighten the crooked
You must first do a harder thing -
Straighten yourself.

You are your only master.
Who else?
Subdue yourself,
And discover your master.

Buddha

kindness
mudra

[stiros]

I think it has been a life long “walk” for me.
I think I always followed my heart, with it's consequences.
Some important steps for me was:
Philosophically and creativity “trained”, started at early age of five, by my grandpa.
And I think, I have always in a way sensed other peoples feelings, I am not sure about this.
Freedom fighter, Always in fight, with bullies, one or several, because I was small (then), but rather bright, and a beautiful young girl was delighted with me, you can see the problem.
So I became a real fighter and daredevil, at young age.
Orb-fed, during my childhood, I didn't know what it was and why.
Always dreaming about our future and our progress in everything, in this good society of ours, and everything was possible.
I was totally unaware that grown-ups could lie, steal and deceive, especially not people high up in the “power structure”, because I was programmed to believe so.
This picture I had, has slowly been destroyed, because I found out more and more about lies, cowardice, disloyalty, selfishness and so on.
More the higher up in the “power structure” you got.
During that time I experienced thought-reading and out of body experience.
I have never had much prejudices about anything.
If I found out something that seems to work, then I didn't care what the surroundings thought.
I tried to meditate at that time, but it didn't work, because it was a very hostile environment I lived and worked in, and my brain and everything was on full speed.
To mentally survive I became an even more daredevil, to really provoke the “evil surrounding”, the cowardices.
I found out that among the daredevils they were very reliable, really very good friends.
If you are incompatible with the “scoundrels”, they will destroy you eventually.
When everything was crushed, I was in a very bad mood, I have lost nearly everything.
In fact I was on the 22nd step of the emotional scale, with suicidal thoughts.
And in fact is was a cat that helped me, because I couldn't leave the cat alone.
So I slowly tried to make all my fears conscious, and it was really a hard time for me, this climbing.
At the same time I began also learn more and more about meditation and healing.
And I began to be more and more conscious about the power elite, so I became a frequent writer of threads and posts against the New World Order.
My “spiritual capacity” increased during this time, especially after I was charged from a sphere floating around two meters above ground within the foliage of a cherry-tree.
This you can't tell to a “normally programmed person”.
Anyhow, after that I got increased “feeling capacity” and healing capacity.
After some time I found out about Project Camelot and I watched a lot of videos and read a lot of papers there.
I was charmed with Kerry's and Bill's way of approaching things, I felt much kindness, and I loved that.
Anyhow “by chance”, you know “power elite chance”, this website where I was active at, happened to disappear, and a lot of other “by chance” things happened, very strange.
I missed that writing on the web-side very much, it was a kind of safety valve for me, it felt good to do something in the right direction.
I believe very strong in following my heart, and always try to do my best and to be kind to everything.
So I found out about the Project Avalon, and now I am here.
I must say I feel very good now, you are all great individuals, and I am truly grateful for that.

[Barron]

I have always been a free thinker and chose my parents for this incarnation so that i would be well exposed to free-thinking. I am not religious but along the way from about age 7 have read everything metaphysical, spiritual or "new age" or natural health-wise that could get my hands on. And along the way took the parts of the various religions that resonated with me. Also, went off to many spiritual development groups and also studied Theosophy and went and got an advanced Diploma in Hypnotherapy too, hence my choice of the Spiral to the left.

And i even went and got a job with the largest importer and distributor of new-age and natural health type titles.

I have always been a truthseeker and a free-thinker and always question things. Want to kow why something is done a particular way, especially if i can see a better way of doing something or a quicker way or i don't see the logic in something. (guess, i'd be useless in the Army eh??!! )

Growing up was exposed to the thoughts of a clairvoyant Mum and a completly "off-world" Dad who is the original mad-inventor, always tinkering around with free-energy etc and was hugely into UFO reseach also.

So, i guess, by choosing my current parents for this lifetime i kinda got a good head start.

What am i going to do with all this info. Well, am helping in my own small way with this site and other sites. Dom some planetary healing work and grid-work occasionally. Also ask for ET help in deactivating the The Large Hadron Collider and other such things from time to time.

My true mission is still manifesting and pieces and contacts falling into place as they need to in divine timing.

So, in a long and convoluted way, i guess what i am saying Carmen is there wasn't one specific event as such that could be identified as the event that awakened me - actually, I am not saying that I am "awakened" but I am definitely fairly aware! I never stop learning and hopefully these posts will go some way to creating the change in this beautiful world that I am assuming most of us want to see.

Peace and Bright Blessings to All.

[Anchor]

For me there was never a light-switch moment, it has been a gradual process starting with a slow-burning rebellion as a child, but really accellerating ever since I got away from the education system and living at home. [I quit polytechnic before I finished my Computer Science degree, which has given me some problems later in life with regards to leaving the country and finding another that would have me - finish your higher education kids!].

Meeting my likeminded wife 22years ago was a real help, and our journey of awakening has been constant.

I have met many people for whom the 911 attrocity was the real alarm call that could not be ignored.

A..

[Anchor]

Originally Posted by Barron

Also ask for ET help in deactivating the The Large Hadron Collider and other such things from time to time.

I know this is off topic, but dude, thanks for doing that!

It's nice to be on the winning side isn't it?

A..

[henners]

I woke up after having some very disturbing experiences. I decided to start meditation just to relax the mind and hopefully release my stress.
I had an out of body experience and saw myself sitting on the floor. Later i had some readings by a channeler, and was told some very interesting things that have been coming true since.
I tell you something, there is more to come. I'll comment more on another time.
This all happened about 5 years ago, but i have been very aware of 'things' since i was a child.
Henry

[raulduke]

Originally Posted by Seth Haniel

Born awake

Same here, I think.

For as long as I can remember, I have always had the feeling that there was something dreadfully wrong w/ the society I was born into, and that it could be different, better.

It's like in "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy".

"You know," said Arthur thoughtfully, "all this explains a lot of things. All through my life I've had this strange unaccountable feeling that something was going on in the world, something big, even sinister, and no one would tell me what it was."

"No," said the old man, "that's just perfectly normal paranoia. Everyone in the Universe has that."

There is a reason we all have this feeling, and there is a reason that society does so much to dissuade that feeling.

At about the same time I became interested politics I immediately realized where the problem lies. It was so clear in my head, but for some reason I could not clearly convey to others what was so obvious to me. The words escaped me until I heard Bill Hicks explain exactly what I felt.

The world is like a ride at an amusement park. And when you choose to go on it, you think that it's real because that's how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills, and it's very brightly coloured, and it's very loud and it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question - is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us. They say 'Hey! Don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because, this is just a ride.' And we...kill those people. Ha ha ha. 'Shut him up! We have a lot invested in this ride. SHUT HIM UP! Look at my furrows of worry. Look at my big bank account and family. This just has to be real.' It's just a ride. But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that, you ever notice that? And let the demons run amok. But it doesn't matter because: it's just a ride. And we can change it anytime we want. It's only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings, and money. A choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourselves off. The eyes of love, instead, see all of us as one. Here's what you can do to change the world, right now, to a better ride. Take all that money that we spend on weapons and defence each year, and instead spend it feeding, clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would many times over, not one human being excluded, and we could explore space, together, both inner and outer, for ever, in peace.

I cried just a bit when I first heard this while my friends were laughing. They thought he was still joking I guess. I knew it was sincere though, and it made me so sad that others didn't see the beautiful simplicity of this idea. It's simply undeniable imho.

The real catalyst though, had to be when I finally got my own computer.......information overload!

[McMaster]

I remember reading a book about Mayans and their building skills. I cannot remeber how old I was, would've been prolly around 10. And can remeber thinking that something is not right on this picture. I also read (well, atleast 10 times) couple books you were able to order, I think it was from Readers Digest, "Mysteries of the World" was one and cannot remeber what the otherone was called. But they were big books and I just ate them when I was a kid, and many times. I never had anyone "guiding" me tho, and so it stayed at that, reading a couple of books and wondering over those things I read from them. I would say about 3 years ago I started to get interested about NWO stuff and such. But it still was mainly waching a video every now and then and that's it. Around this time I also started to think what\who am I. I think it was last August, I found David Wilcoks Camelot interview from youtube, that got me thinking and I found PC at the same go. Next day I watched George Greers interview, and here we are 4 months later thinking quite differently now. 4 months and I haven't turned on my TV since I found Camelot and Avalon, I've just been reading and reading , oh and did I mention reading as well.

[tone3jaguar]

For me it was an encounter with a demonic entitiy. I would call it a rude spiritual awakening. Imagine going from normal materialistic one day to hallucinating and having apocolyptic thougts the next with out pharmalogical assistance. Then suddenly when a shaman friend talks to you the whole thing suddenly ends and goes back to normal. There was no going back to a normal perception of the universe after that.

[Jnana]

I've had two spiritual awakenings in my life, both UFO related. The first had to do with reading a book by George Adamski. I was in California at the time and tried to look him up on Mt Palomar but a guy at the post office there said he was a fraud so I gave up. I found myself still in need of a spiritual path and ended up in the Mormon Church (long story). That lasted a few years. I became disillusioned and went back to my atheist roots.

Decades later (early 2008) I found myself researching UFOs again and by way of the Billy Meier case I found George Green and the Handbook for a New Paradigm. I also ran across the Disclosure Project. The latter convinced me of the reality of UFOs, the former provided another spiritual kick in the pants. One day, after a few weeks of research, I found myself laughing uncontrollably, pretty much all day, at just how wrong I had been about pretty much everything. I haven't really looked back. I started meditating again, I've been to a CSETI workshop, seen UFOs, had deeply spiritual experiences, etc.

The UFO connection is this: 1) If you are convinced as I was that modern science is a complete and accurate picture of the universe and that scientists really are interested in truth, then UFOs really throw a monkey wrench into the works because they sure aren't using rockets. Einstein's interpretation of gravity does not allow for field propulsion at the realitively low energy levels that Townsend Brown (the guy in my avatar pic) was observing effects at. I really like physics, but what passes for physics in modern science has huge holes in it that have been systematically supressed to hide electro-gravitic effects, as well as radiant energy phenomena discovered by Tesla, Bearden, and others. 2) Telepathy is ubiquitous in reports of UFO contacts. This is a big problem if you think intelligence is what the brain does and nothing more. It opens the door to a much larger world of "metaphysical" phenomena as being potentially real. It opened it enough this time that I could gain some personal experience.

My whole world is turned upside down and I'm loving every minute of it.

[dagon]

Originally Posted by dagon

its been a life journey for me, I remember talking to my mother as a young adult in tears. telling her I could feel that something was going to happen in our life time. and this life we all had was not what it was intended to be. and I couldn't shake it. my whole life has been a discovery of awaking. and have always been drawn to nature, and the unexplained. and thought of a utopian society. and as I matured. I was never satisfied with what I was learning. as a matter of fact I was seeking to disconnect with life feeling it was all backwards. and not having the tools and guidance to deal with such things. it took a while for me to get on track. I have always questioned the matrix. but to find truth in this world is hard. Im so happy to see parts of it now manifesting. and forums like this to pool bits and peaces. and to know Im not alone.



after all I am an aquarian.

I have to add. when I was about 18. I picked up 2 books. that changed everything for me. I coundnt put them down. it was like conformation.

Communion
http://www.amazon.com/Communion-True.../dp/0380703882

The 12th Planet (Earth Chronicles)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zecharia_Sitchin

after reading these books. I began to look at the world a lot differently.