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MMe M · 12-05-2008, 11:36 PM

James,
Look, what im about to say sounds bizarre even for me and ive told no one but ill spill here and nutcase labels be damned. I hope the people here of all the population will understand because I myself am partially still in the dark. I like would love to hear the rest of the story but we only ever get bits and pieces here and there.

I have had strange revelations lately. No activity for years and now boom! Theyre back. I know I have been taken recently and several physical conditions "fixed". They told me before hand they would fix what was wrong, I have an intense fear and distrust of hospitals or medical institutions so even though I knew I had a life threatening condition, there was no way I was going to the Dr. They were careless and I felt a stirring of cold breezes and a physical drop of miniscule measurements when dropped back in my bed. I was told by them (shadowy advanced types after being fixed) that while many have ascended, it was not my place to do so. I was also told it had nothing to do with goodness of spirit or soul, but that I and others were meant to carry on with the forthcoming struggle. They said I and others were chosen long ago and that we must lead those when they would return to the violence they had lived. I am also to get into physical shape again, ive let myself grow soft in the last year and that was the end of the couch potato vaca. So, I am, much to my own amazement. I am anti athoritarian in the extreme but im being a good little puppet and doing what im told. This pisses me off to no end. I know how to protect myself, its almost as mundane and routine as keeping hair out of your vision. Was taught how when I was three actually it may have been earlier but that is the point in time I remember being taught) but this isnt an issue with these entities. I am resigned to the fact I must stay but not at all happy. I feel like the good times we had are only a memory now and good will come again but not till we are old and gray.

Why do I always have to be a warrior? I thought I was catching a break here, Im a girl this go round damnitall!

Yippee. Just flippin wonderful.

12-05-2008, 11:36 PM	#188
MMe M Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 211	Re: James Casbolt:Underground U.K. bases! James, Look, what im about to say sounds bizarre even for me and ive told no one but ill spill here and nutcase labels be damned. I hope the people here of all the population will understand because I myself am partially still in the dark. I like would love to hear the rest of the story but we only ever get bits and pieces here and there. I have had strange revelations lately. No activity for years and now boom! Theyre back. I know I have been taken recently and several physical conditions "fixed". They told me before hand they would fix what was wrong, I have an intense fear and distrust of hospitals or medical institutions so even though I knew I had a life threatening condition, there was no way I was going to the Dr. They were careless and I felt a stirring of cold breezes and a physical drop of miniscule measurements when dropped back in my bed. I was told by them (shadowy advanced types after being fixed) that while many have ascended, it was not my place to do so. I was also told it had nothing to do with goodness of spirit or soul, but that I and others were meant to carry on with the forthcoming struggle. They said I and others were chosen long ago and that we must lead those when they would return to the violence they had lived. I am also to get into physical shape again, ive let myself grow soft in the last year and that was the end of the couch potato vaca. So, I am, much to my own amazement. I am anti athoritarian in the extreme but im being a good little puppet and doing what im told. This pisses me off to no end. I know how to protect myself, its almost as mundane and routine as keeping hair out of your vision. Was taught how when I was three actually it may have been earlier but that is the point in time I remember being taught) but this isnt an issue with these entities. I am resigned to the fact I must stay but not at all happy. I feel like the good times we had are only a memory now and good will come again but not till we are old and gray. Why do I always have to be a warrior? I thought I was catching a break here, Im a girl this go round damnitall! Yippee. Just flippin wonderful.