That's all anyone can do, Micjer
I found it helpful to read far and wide, too. Also debating issues was good for me since it helped to shine a light on blind spots that I wasn't aware I had.
There's nothing like a succinct word or two coming from someone else to freeze you in your tracks and send you flying back to the drawing board
And speaking in metaphors by the looks of it.
Interesting that the Theosophical timeline is out a bit, isn't it?
I guess that excuses Pope John Paul II from his Anti-Christ duties and lays the job on someone else's doorstep.
Initially, I found some of the Theosophical tenets interesting but when I dug a little futher I was less impressed.
It occurs to me that even if the start point of a thought system has its wisdoms, others can make something of it that is almost its opposite, which then becomes integrated into its mainstream. That appears to happen in almost every 'belief' system that exists.
I came to a conclusion that any such system is at its best when you can track it back to its original state. From there on it tends to lose its true meaning.