[Sanat]

Don't worry about "hijacking", Allie. Your thoughts/experience is much appreciated. Indeed, that is what sharing is about. Arguing over a given "positionality" is meaningless as it only inflames the ego and further polarizes the one's indulging in such activity. If you really want to add value to the thread than you share from your own experience. That is much appreciated indeed.

It is possible to live without conflict inside. It is possible to be peaceful and satisfied inside at all times. Not matter the circumstances. There is no stronger catalyst for spiritual growth than the "unkown" of mortality - of death. Most people think they will live for ever. Death is not allowed to enter into their reality. What we call "life" should be called Life/Death. As death is what we are moving towards all the time. Death strips away all that is unessential. The notion of mortality empties out the "rucksack". It makes you more and more Real inside, because only that which is unreal can die.

All those focused on "surviving" 2012 etc. are in reality missing the opportunity to face their mortality in a honest way. All those placing blame on others/the world/elite etc. are in reality blaming Creator/Creation as there is only One life being lived. That is ok, but it does not lead anywhere but towards more blame. It takes tremendous courage to look at oneself, instead of blaming/projecting it on to others/the world/elite etc. The humility that is needed for such an "inward turn" is incredible. So strong is the grip of the ego/mind complex in many many humans that they would rather die than to admit they are "wrong". The process of emptying the rucksack starts with an incredible act of humility. To admit for oneself that one does really know anything. All is based on others info and general indoctrination. The cult called familiy/society starts the brainwashing process from day one. You have to dig really deep to find the Real under all the layers of conditioning.