Hi Flying Pyramid
Just hang in there, you are doing fine matey and sit at the beginning of a realisation which is such a wonderful period.
I've been through a very unsettled life myself (32 years of it) and its very important to hold onto that thought, and in your case you are sharing something very important...yourself
If you were to be removed from this existence you would have been, you have not been removed and won't be.
I have been through three experiences where I believe I have been 'helped' in some manner.
1: (I just related this story today to friend at work and could not answer once again who saved me..still no idea yet so vivid) I was about seven years old and was towed under by an under current and gave up on fighting it, in fact I didn't really resist so much as I couldn't do much about it, I had two girls take me by the hands and bring me up...once I was on the surface they were not anywhere to be seen.
2: Was slashed with a beer bottle to learn a 'lesson' where I apparently died on the bed in hospital through blood loss... My parents were in tears to see me again the next morning to wake up, I didn't even know the extent of my injuries which still plague me now to a very much lesser extent
3: About a year later I was in a high speed car crash on a dirt road lined with tress travelling 100kmh which lost control and rolled over and skidded along the roof with our bands gear in it. Once both of us in the car 'woke up' upside down and asked "are you ok".... "yeah I am fine" and undid ourselves from the belts and made our way out of the car upside down and walked to my house which was a few hundred metres we could not stop laughing the whole way on that short walk. It was truly magical
After watching the Code 144 video and all of Gregs amazing work which amazes me. I think your birthdate means something and why you have have something to share. I have always been intrigued by my own birth date 10/2 10.20am.
All my Love,
moogercake