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Originally Posted by Flying Pyramid
As i stated before, it is my burden to bare.
But i have to take a risk sometime, somewhere if i am to continue this journey.
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Richard,
Yours is a strange tale to be sure. I am however not shocked or surprised. Not much can do that anymore. It is excellent to be asked these questions because I feel like I can take some liberties and say more than I feel I can normally. However, if what I say doesn't ring true, that's ok, I might well be wrong, so just drop it and move along.
I think the first thing you need to know is that you will get through this. That pressure/thing/awareness that you are feeling 'growing' inside is ok. You will contain it and adapt, think spiritual collagen
It is really important to remember that the weight of the world does not rest solely on your shoulders alone. There are millions of us here now.
With meditation there is no "cant do it", just "wont do it". This is a fight between you, various levels of your mind and your ego; and it is one that you need to win at some point. Just keep at it everyday - preferably at the same time each day, even if it is just 5 min's to start with. Sit in silence - there is no right or wrong way. Others may come and give you some ideas of how to do it and thats fine too, but basically as has been said -
truth is a pathless land - there are as many ways home as there are individual souls walking there.
Right now, I think it would be extremely valuable for you to seek out some real face to face, in the flesh, contact with other awakening or (preferably) awakened people/person. Just inwardly accept that now is the time, and let someone come to you, synchronistically. Let them take your spiritual hand in theirs and assure you, as I try to with words, but in a more real way: that you are not alone, that all is one, and that we are all protected, loved and cherished more than our human minds can comprehend.
May the light and the love of the one infinite creator bless, protect and guide you on your path.
A..
PS: In Startrek Voyager, Captain Janeway gives good advice on dealing with Temporal Paradox's, and that is don't!