[dayzero]

and to answer your question, i sort of feel like you do [or have felt like that].... but now I'm enjoying it, and i don't feel frustration, in fact I just want the quickening to quicken, so we can get on with it!
it's such a grand opportunity.
there is only so much [not much at all] that you can do for others - the work is for yourself [and themselves] alone.
seems hard at first, but there it is.
it's actually quite liberating [speaking for myself] once you start living it from the right perspective.

wishing you the very best of all worlds.