[Chris1617]

Originally Posted by Gnosis5

It is not so much that I wish to always have my mind stilled or to always be in awareness of the "Sphere", but to be able to change my mind about being fixed in one place or another.

One is never in a permanent state of divinity while in human incarnation. The permanent change in consciousness is not that one is ever divine. There would be no point in being here if that were so. Tis human to err and fore'er we're human. The idea a "Master", whatever that is, can make no error is itself in error. This was brought home to me very clearly in the first few days after the experience. Just as James mentioned, the Corteum Brain enhancement technology mentioned in the AA Book is a metaphor for the transformation. This has decidedly distracting effects for about 6 months until one becomes acquainted with the new consciousness and the way everything looks.

The Transformation brought with it, for me, a flowing of energies throughout the upper regions (exactly those shown in Chamber 17 painting). These energies are very physical and flow from around the upper chest/neck area up into the face and around it and over the head and into the brain. These are what the color bands on the face in Chamber 17 depict. The energies went in exactly those places, in flowing lines; it was an amazing thing to experience, and, of course, revealed to me what the Chamber 17 imagery was about in that respect. Prior to the experience I had not anticipated this in any way. It was a complete surprise.

The distraction is very noticeable and you keep looking at things registering how they are different from before. The body, for example, has the sensation that it could walk through walls. As an example I was walking through what had always been a dingy walkway to the subway train, but now, of course, it looked much lighter and spiritual than before. I had to reach out and touch the wall to ensure that my hand wouldn't pass through it, and, of course, it didn't. But for several months you are doing things like that as you re-equate the physical body with reality again. It is also a way of registering the change in consciousness and confirming the fact that you are still here. The Buddha did this when he famously touched the earth with his hand to "bring it forward as a witness to his enlightenment."

So, to the point of this diversion, I was so distracted on about the second day after the experience that I completely forgot about a university exam that I had to monitor that day! It taught me right away that Transformation doesn't mean you'll never make a mistake again.

I'm glad that you mentioned the time and resources you spent before you achieved this state. Based on my own experience I imagine that you somehow cleared your own way to this experience. I imagine you had to effect some prior changes in yourself in order to experience the Thunder of Silence.

There were considerable periods of time when I was just too busy with the day job, teaching at unis, to get to the WMM and it is important to not let one's everyday world slide into neglect in any way. I am convinced that the painting imagery coupled with decoding its meanings had an effect on me. It is important to mention that I didn't necessarily believe what I was reading and uncovering, or the philosophy the painting was so eloquently illustrating in far greater detail than the writing.

I do distinctly remember the very night of (or the night before) the Transformation after just realizing what the Sovereign Integral was and its position within the painting and philosophy, thinking, or rather feeling, "Wouldn't it be wonderful if this is the way things really are." I didn't believe it. I was inquiring, investigating, and wanting to know.

I had just been devouring my research for about a month whenever I could -- and especially during the last two weeks of solid uninterrupted all-day every day final research and writing up the findings with virtually no interruptions at the end of the summer recess. It had all required a great deal of both left and right brain work and you are probably aware that James has said exposing oneself to the WMM leads to the creation of certain clusters within the thalamocortical system in the brain and other areas (ILN) that appear to catalyze the change in consciousness.

I am also impressed that it seems to be a permanent state for you. All of my previous "Ascensions" have been unstable. I now think I know why and am putting in the necessary groundwork before I go off on another ascension experience, because coming down off the mountaintop is a bit rough on me

I am not without my challenges and trials. I became so sick a few months later that I almost died. This was because of certain errors in my lifestyle that I thought were actually correct finally coming to a head. I had to rethink all of that too and get it right. Things are much better now, and it is an eternal blessing to have Source ever before you when you can relax and become yourself. I remarked to Mark Hempel at the time that it was really strange sitting in the back of an ambulance in a state of Buddhic consciousness.

My grasp of science is weak, but I am making some headway because people believe science first and I need a bridge to communicate. However, I agree with Dr. Neruda that BST is not the correct solution.

Science is only knowledge and truth, but some scientists tend to believe in science, which to me betrays a lack of scientific professionalism. There should be no necessity for belief in science. Ideally for me belief arises when knowledge is unavailable, and it is important to acknowledge ones beliefs and that they are only beliefs and may one day be proven incorrect. Even with the Transformation one doesn't know everything there is to be known, and so beliefs can arise. Even Source is still engaged in that quest in which we are the Human Instruments assisting It.

It is completely impossible to change the past, although I don't recall exactly that this is what 15 was literally trying to do. (Unlike Neruda the Transformation for me did not bring a photographic memory. It tends to enhance ones abilities more than bring completely new ones.) Such would be the eradication of portions of the experience of Source or ones spirit. Completely impossible. I've posted more on this elsewhere or at Camelot.

From the Wingmakers I perceive that art is also a bridge. The art is the most valuable discovery IMHO.

For me art is the closest Human Instrument expression to the visual experiencing of Source through the psyche and mind. Sound is also a very powerful means of communion; and listening to the WM music while studying, absorbing, searching, and researching the paintings especially the corresponding painting numbers provides a very powerful combination.

Re the Animus, we once encountered something that seemed to be a being that was very frozen up -- so frozen that I wanted to call it an "it". "It" was obeying orders. I have seen myself and others outfitted with android bodies, but usually after a lot of force and duress had occurred back and forth, and when released, we eventually bounced back and went on to other experiences.

James has said the Animus are already here. They represent the alien -- to spirit, as well as ETs -- that are vying for our attention and subservience. Their promise of power is probably their strongest tool. They will not win. The planetary change in frequency will confound them and place mankind in the advantage.

In your state or soon-to-be state you can simply know. I am still laboring under the strain of all of the "not-know" decisions I made and the resulting blindness. I am working to regain my choice to know or not-know. I trust that what the Wingmakers left behind will aid me.

A speaker at a meeting I attended last night made a very astute point. To paraphrase: Any concern, worry, fear you now find yourself in was caused by your past actions based on your past thoughts that weren't in tune with the reality you wished to create or the one in development in the world at large. Assessment of where we are and where we wish to go from here is forever ongoing and as we get better at it we grow in wisdom. This path is eternal.

Chris


cheers!
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