Hi Sauce (may I call you 'Saucy'?
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As mentioned earlier in the thread I had a personal, psychic experience which led me into the enigma that is 2012. I wasn't told the eventual outcome so I spent two years trotting about, deer-stalker on top of my head in full Sherlock Holmes mode. I read, I visited websites, I attended talks, I met authors of books on 2012, I got to know channellers, .....and in general, I looked for 'the' answer to be given to me by someone else. Although I didn't realise that at the time.
What I found was that there appears to be so many theories. Each and every channeller, author, speaker and so on, that I met had a different belief. Even those who were channelling from the same source.
This led me to believe that perhaps a) we aren't meant to know (although don't question me on that one as I haven't worked it out either
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b) there are an awful lot of beings with various agendas. c) when and if I am meant to know - I will. But it will come from 'me' as opposed to an outside source since my experiences to date tell me I may be the only person I can have faith in. Hopefully
So I get the gist of quite possibly every theory and belief that exists but the only way I can see through it all is to detach from the outcome, know that I'll find my way and find small joys in my current every day life.
As I said earlier, I came to Avalon as I was hoping to learn something about self-sufficiency. Perhaps I missed the point of the forum but either way, I've met some interesting people and picked up a little more insight into myself.
I don't know what it is - war on terra, golden era - I think running around with my deer-stalker on was useful, but it strikes me that if we haven't a clue what it is we're planning for, then the next best thing is to be mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually equipped to do what we can, when we can for whoever we can.