[Xhaosis]

Let me gather some strength, I am grateful, for the welcoming and acceptance here. I do not fear what so ever, to express my mind and thoughts. I have been on message boards before where I would awaken in the middle of the night in a panic.. Regretting my posts. Thinking I was being laughed at and ridiculed. In retrospect I was. But that is a tit for a tat.. As far as blonde's, I have experienced their presence in a dream/vision I had just a year ago or so.. She was beautiful not HUMAN for sure, what I meant about being pale was, her skin was not normal.. Yet accepting to human logic but not normal.. What I mean is it did not create stress or trauma trying to understand something out of our physical reality. Yet it was not right. She was associated with one of the darkest yet wisest figures I have ever communed with. Err thee only. What I mean by darkest is every time I try to see the face of this figure I cannot.. Not at all. Never ever ever.. Yet I can always remember hers... I wish I was one with answers on this one.. I just do not think anyone can explain this phenom.

PEACE