[Genevieve]

I do hear what you are saying Xhao

Nobody wants to die - yet we all know from birth thats exactly what we are going to do. Why is that SUCH a terror to us - our ego???

I dont know if its just me or whether its having children or what - but the whole dying thing has never been an issue with me ( i was supposed to have died already twice in my life according to modern medicine - not that i trust them one bit) - however since having children - my "ego" i guess has taken on the role of NOT wanting to blink out of existence just yet - not because "I "dont want to blink away but because I felt that i had a duty to at least get these 2 little souls on their own journey in this life.

Truthfully there have been times in my life when i would truly rather slip out of this existence - but the thought that i have something meaningful to contribute has been the only thing keeping me here. Maybe that is the ego working in another way other than life death or winning. Its not something i expect accolades for - more like a "Chore" i have to do before i pass on.

BTW - i truly thank everyone for this discussion - it has been truly inspiring for me - if theres one thing i like in people its passion and you lot have an abundance!! That can only be a good thing!!!