[Circlewerk]

Every day, I come across a belief that I have been influenced with and attached to, unconsciously. I do my best to look at it without emotional judgment.
I observe the beliefs that are offered and the ones that are already stained in my soul ( if & when they surface) and I try to understand them from a neutral point of view, so that I can discern unconditionally & intelligently, and no longer identify with the belief.
I try to stop intentionally feeding my ego and it's need for an identity (labels, roles, etc) based on insecurity/fear. It has been difficult, but I know it would be harder if I did not do this.
Living influenced has been a lie, I'm over it. And instead of taking on new beliefs, I'm allowing myself to be detached from all of it.
Being the sky, watching the clouds, if you will.

If I am emotional about the idea of not having a belief to identify with anymore, I am still heavily influenced, and if I am honest with myself, I must see that I am not the pilot of my life.
I am still very much linking happiness or security,with the false idea of "my" beliefs.


Who I am going to look to for this protection?

I have come to a conclusion recently, as long as I continue to rely on an outside source, (even if it is a seemingly reliable thought) to protect me, or even tell me the truth, I am in trouble. I am still influenced, conditioned.
When I hope for protection, I am dis-empowered. I have unconsciously introduced the idea that without outside protection, I am not safe.
Sound familiar?


Could thoughts about "the future" be a trap?
Because any thought I can offer as a preference I think I have about the future, is most likely a thought that has been forced upon me without a real understanding of what is available.
There are theories, ideas, visions, religions, and many so called sacred texts that are referenced when the future is discussed in terms of what may/may not happen or worst/best case scenario.
All of this information is regurgitated, we would be selling ourselves short if we created the future from our current perception of reality, past & present, and if we allowed for any current idea about it to manifest. Again.

My only ammo is a fearless awareness, a willingness to be detached from outside influences & responsible for what I deem real, so that i can create with care.
And to get there, I had to be willing to challenge every belief I had.
When you think that you are your thoughts/beliefs, this is a difficult place to get to. It means you are ready to become aware of how deeply you have been influenced, which caused the fear, which desires protection.

Circles,
CW