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Originally Posted by ChristinCP

I've been getting increasingly frustrated lately b/c I feel like I have an important purpose, but nothing "big" is happening. What can I really do? ...Perhaps I've just had delusions of grandeur about some great purpose that I have? Does anyone else feel like this? Like you're here to do something really important, but the opportunity is just not presenting itself?

Sometimes I just think I'd be happiest going back to church and singing about Jesus.

This comment resonated with me as it must with many. I can tell you that I went through life for fifty years, basically looking up at the sky and shouting, "What?! What already?!" Then, about eight years ago, everything started falling into place. And I began to realize that this - THIS HERE - is exactly what I came here for. This is what I've always known would happen. This is what I was born to play a part in. This is my time, this is my element.

Does everyone have such an epiphany? I believe it is possible. Does my "awakening" make me more than I was before? Well, yes and no. Certainly no more valuable as a being, or in any way "better" than anyone, whatever that means. But yes, my vision is clearer, the confusion is parted, and I am able to assimilate new information much more rapidly and clearly than I ever imagined possible. And my job is to pass it on expeditiously.

I don't know how old you are, ChristinCP...but it doesn't matter. It took half a century for my life to make sense. Part of me always had faith that it would fall into place eventually. The long wait was frustrating...and worth it. Be patient.