[calico]

Heretic, I'm kinda very new here but it is the last thing on my mind to have my feelings driven in any direction by a bunch of folks on a forum. Some of them could be raving lunatics and some of them could be enlightened beyond all belief. You don't know, so why all these cries for attention? Do you need something seriously? I would suggest write a mod or find some positive encouragement for yourself somewhere. A forum is perhaps not the place to get what you are looking for. There is a whole lot of other stuff here though if you are interested. But for heaven's sake, don't let your feelings hang on a forum! Its the wrong place! No-one is punishing you .. everyone mostly is just wise cracking.