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pilot · 10-20-2008, 12:17 AM

Hi I'm Pilot and I'm an alcoholic, oddly enough at what I think is hopefully the tail end if a relapse. Glad to see this discussion, wow! Thanks OP.

I started to get turned off by the program and let my nit-pickery about it allow me to rationalize my way out of it and back to using eventually. That was 9 months ago that I "went out" officially.

I felt guilty for not making as many meetings as I felt I "should" and then said No way-this is as bad as religion. Eff the guilt...that's the false turn I made.

Nothing supernatural about it, this is what they said would happen. It happened. I want to go back and get what I need and give back. The greatest gift you can give is your truth in that context, how nice such a thing exists for us. The only time I really felt like I was on the narrow path was when I did service.

I still have misgivings about any orthodoxy when it come to my spiritual path, but there is no reason not to include AA among other things. Service to others is what it's all about right?

10-20-2008, 12:17 AM	#9
pilot Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: OK Posts: 153	Re: 12 Step Recovery in Post Collapse World Hi I'm Pilot and I'm an alcoholic, oddly enough at what I think is hopefully the tail end if a relapse. Glad to see this discussion, wow! Thanks OP. I started to get turned off by the program and let my nit-pickery about it allow me to rationalize my way out of it and back to using eventually. That was 9 months ago that I "went out" officially. I felt guilty for not making as many meetings as I felt I "should" and then said No way-this is as bad as religion. Eff the guilt...that's the false turn I made. Nothing supernatural about it, this is what they said would happen. It happened. I want to go back and get what I need and give back. The greatest gift you can give is your truth in that context, how nice such a thing exists for us. The only time I really felt like I was on the narrow path was when I did service. I still have misgivings about any orthodoxy when it come to my spiritual path, but there is no reason not to include AA among other things. Service to others is what it's all about right?