Thank you mntruthseeker, I need these reminders.
I know that sound strange, allow me to explain.
The reason I began to research occult subjects like these, was because I could never reconcile w/in myself, the reason that I had it so easy (in life), and so many have it so hard. At the time I had no idea about any specifics, of what might be going on, but I had an idea that it was awful. It is a feeling that has been w/ me as far back as I can remember, which was simply, that things are not right in the world.
The very first intro I had to these subjects was at a fairly young age (21 or so), when I heard that the Discovery Channel had declined to air the documentary that Mary Lou has provided, "Conspiracy of Silence". I was able to find it on google video soon after. It was hard to watch as, I had been raised Roman Catholic (which i have strayed from today) and had a relatively good/benign view of my schooling.
I remember that night I also watched David Icke interview Arizona Wilder. (sidenote: I remember checking the date of the Icke interview after I heard that prince Charles was going to marry Camilla Parker Bowles, because Wilder had said that would happen. She was spot on well before any media had picked that up.) I was a mess for days after that night.
There is alot of talk about fear mongering on this forum, people don't want to talk about things that make them fearful, but I simply cannot put it out of my mind. And I don't want to, because it reminds me that there are people who are capable of this evil.
I am always reminded of a quote from American Beauty (great movie despite what I'm about to say) when I think about this stuff.
Quote:
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Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in.
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I feel just the opposite sometimes.
I feel more empathy than I can bare at times, but it passes, because my life is a cake walk. I do what I can for the people around me, but there is still the sense that it is not enough. I have felt for a long time now that at some point in my life, I will be put to a test. I need to remember so that when the time comes, I'll be ready to jump in and do what I can.
Thanks for reminding me.