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Realview - I respect your opinion. Again I mean no disrespect when I say saints especially in this forum. I feel that all who are here are in such regard because you have open your eyes.

When I said "The ball is in your court" I meant you as human beings not them.

And I have been very lost, sad, and confused for a very long time. Many years in fact. This conflict takes a tremendous toll on me everyday of my life from the time that I wake to the time that I go to sleep. One thing I will be very strong about and confirm I stand on my faith in God.. Jesus Christ is Lord!!! I won't make any excuses or say that I am sorry for the above statement. I go here because my faith will not be called out and not answered..strongly!

Further more let me make this clear to all. This post is not to lift me up, or make me in higher regard then anyone else here. I was pushed to post this in the spirit. I personally feel that it was a higher calling and not a lower one. It is up to you all to take the information presented and make that call.

I have had true/real contact with both sides for many lifetimes, including this one.

I have exposed myself on this form and am having a difficult time. On the one hand I am relieved to have placed the information out here and on the other I feel as if I will be tested once again up close and personal this time out of the blue. I'm sharing a lot with all of you here that is of a very personal nature. At least for the last couple of posting. I cannot prove anything that I say nor will I try, it is up to you to take the information and apply it as you will.

This is difficult.