[sylph16]

My mom always told me, i was a lost soul....that is when she had time too...i am the oldest of 7....

I grew up poor, i was always and will ever be a day-dreamer, a sky-watcher and searching for myself. I LOVE animals and all of nature, i dream of flying on the wings of the hawks that live on the land we live on...

When i was 4, i asked my mother when the ship was coming back for me...she told my father what i said. When i went to bed that night there was a lit picture of Jesus hanging on the wall...his eyes followed my every move...shortly after the picture was hung on the wall in my room...the little men showed up in the closet...they would peek at me through the slightly open door, eyes glowing...and huge grins with lots of teeth adorned their faces....my brother would hide under his bed...

Strangely, i can't remember much more of my early childhood...where did the memories go?

To make a long story short, i made quite a specticle of myself until i lost my energy, i was convinced i would rather burn out then fade away...the last 5 years have changed my life...i finally realized, even though all always knew, something/everything is out of whack....especially me...i grew up just in time.

I am very grateful for this forum and all of you...i feel blessed to have been led to Kerry and Bill....i know i will be ok....and so will you...after all i firmly believe in the 6 degrees of seperation theory and I KNOW we are ALL connected...I am, we should be in bliss about that!

peace

sylph