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Originally Posted by 2infinityandbeyond
But when i help someone else i do it for them. I do it so that when my time comes to depart this world i can look back on my life with pride that i made a difference from someones life. And i just LOVE to make people smile, its like a drug to me and i cannot explain it to someone who is not wired this way.
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It is really about you. If making others feel good didn't make you feel good, you wouldn't do it. So it is an ego thing. The second sentence in the quote is "I, my, I, I". It is a story you can latch onto about how great and wonderful you and your non-existent self are.
It is like a drug. The ego is always looking for the next fix, whether it's drugs, alcohol, or being "altruistic". They are all about "me" and making "me" feel better. This is why so many people burn out doing charity work. Eventually the "service" stops making them feel good, they stop getting their fix, and so the motivation to continue is lost.
And after having thoroughly reamed you, I would like to say that you are great and wonderful, but not because you make people smile. You are great and wonderful because you are god. There is nothing you can say or do that can make you less worthy of love and less deserving of all the wonderful things this existence has to offer.