[2infinityandbeyond]

*Are you intelligent (though did not necessarily have top grades); I guess. Last time i done an IQ test i had a result of 138. My mom used to say i was inteligent all of the time, i guess she lot faith in me when i lost interest in school. Inteligence is not about what you know, its knowing that you know very little.

* Are you very creative and enjoy making things. I love to draw and i love to compose music. I guess music is what i spend most of my time doing because i just love it. Ive a natural affinity for it thankfully and i can compose songs in my head easily. I was actually dumbfounded to find that not everyone has this talent, its a beautifull thing to have. Some people have cars and yachts, i have my music.

* Do you always need to know WHY (especially why you are being asked to do something). My mother could tell you this. Yes, actually i do always have to know why. I'm not happy with surface knowledge. If someone wants me to do something i need to know everything so that i can form my own methods of accomplishing the task. And if the task isnt worthwhile doing, i dont do it. Whats the point?

* Do you have disgust and perhaps loathing for the inanity of much of the required work in school, the repetition. I felt trapped when i was in that place and its something i would never want to experience again. To put it exactly as i thought ; It was like a prison reformation centre for my mind. And also, the fact that they are teaching children how high this mountain is compared to that mounatain instead of teaching them how to harness the power of their minds, and teach them the laws of the universe just ****** me right fcuking off and i wanted to punch the teacher every time i sat down and listened to their primitive boring unevolved lessons, so i went and smoked dope and discussed these things with my friends instead.

* Were you rebellious in school, refusing to do homework, rejecting authority of teachers OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure. ho ho ho, no i rebelled. I didnt give a s**t to tell the truth about what my parents thought. As far as i was concerned they didnt own me, they were just a means for me to get into this world, and i was damned if i was gonna let this little action of birth allow them to lay claim to me. I rebelled, big time.

* have you experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult. Yes. More through my late teenage years then ever.

* Do you have difficulty in service-oriented jobs - resistance to authority and caste system of employment. As far as im concerned i am my own leader. (ohh watch the little elitest fairies..) This doesnt mean i feel superior to anyone, this just means i am my own superior. I feel no urge to order other people about or have any power over anyone, and considering that you either crack the whip or get whip cracked when working in this world i decided i would quit and persue my music and other talents.

* Do you prefer cooperative efforts or leadership position or solo if expertise is valued. I prefer either a leadership position (because no offence but i just trust my own ways of doing things, and usually when someone tells me to do something i can think of infinitly better ways to do it, yet.. they still want you to do it their way). Solo is good, if my work is appreciated i love working on my own

* Have you deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity ; I have massive empathy for other people and often get depressed over other peoples problems. Ive a complete lack of empathy for people who choose to be ignorant and will not harness their own power.

* Are you extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) - to no expression of emotion (full shielding) ; In the past i was very emotional. It wasnt a good way of being in this world, and eventually i learned to put up full shielding, although this isnt fool proof it does help.

* Do you have trouble with RAGE. Haha, ask my family

* Do you have trouble with most systems (either emotionally, mentally, or physically)- political, educational, medical, law. Their all corrupt and its beyond me while they still maintain the status and respect that they do. It just goes to show the complete lack of awareness of the common human being on this planet.

* Do you feel alienated from politics - feeling your voice won't count and that the outcome really doesn't matter anyway. ; Politics is not set up to cater for the needs of the regular citizen. Money talks, if you dont have it you may as well stfu

* Do you feel frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc. ; This is a sham, i dont understand how anyone out there could feel as if their life is any way fullfilling by locking themselves into a constant routine that eventually leads to them pissing their pants and choking on their own vomit in an old folks home

* Do you feel anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you." once upon a time yes. But now, no. They can take my body but they will never have my soul. Freedom is in the mind, and besides ive had enough court cases to know that god doesnt rule in favour of men with wigs.

* Do you feel a need like a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. But feel stymied what to do. Yes. Although as ive grown older this has become an insanely daunting task, i do what i can but i feel its pointless to try and effect any real change when you are constantly working against those people you are trying to free.

* Did you have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years. Since i was about eleven. I cant remember exactly but that age sounds about right. Id completely lost interest in religion by the time i was five and therefore my spirituality didnt flourish until i discovered the internet.

* Have you had few if any Indigo role models. Ive had none. Thus my complete lack of faith in the human race.

* Do you have strong intuition. Yup. Its how i roll, some people use their logic, i use my intuition, its the guiding force that drives my life on a daily basis. To give an example ; A few weeks ago i was driving a tractor and i was so so hungry. I thought to myself, "I would LOVE if this tractor just died so i could go and get some food" Five seconds later it died and i went and got my food. We needed a mechanic to get the machine working again.

* Do you have random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder), may have trouble focusing on a task unless of OWN choosing, may jump around in conversations. I was diagnosed with ADD when i was about 10 years old, my lack of interest in the education system worried my parents althout thankfully they never drugged me up. It seemed funny to my parents that i had such a passion and talent for music, drawing and the occult arts yet not a slight interest in school.

* Have you had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, hearing voices, intuitive thoughts coming through etc No too the first 2, yes to the second two. Intuitive thoughts happen daily. And i dont exactly hear 'voices' i hear my own voice talking to myself using vocabulary that i dont posess. He's much more inteligent then my mind is and can answer questions my limited human mind couldnt possibly know the answers too.

* Are you sexually expressive and inventive OR do you reject sexuality in boredom. May explore alternate types of sexuality. I would lean more towords the expressive side of things. Although.. most girls ive met seem to be only concerned with the physical side of sex i crave a deeper connection, a soul to soul connection. If theres no love expressed its just a pointless animalistic act imho.

* Do you seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world you may seek this through religion, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups or books, or individually. Ever since i was a wee man. Its been the driving force of my life.