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* Are you intelligent (though did not necessarily have top grades).
Yes
* Are you very creative and enjoy making things.
Was much more creative as a kid but still somewhat creative nowadays.
* Do you always need to know WHY (especially why you are being asked to do something).
Yes, absolutely. I have always been known for my inquisitiveness
* Do you have disgust and perhaps loathing for the inanity of much of the required work in school, the repetition.
Can't stand it. Couldn't stand the working system either.
* Were you rebellious in school, refusing to do homework, rejecting authority of teachers OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure.
I did my homework til 6th grade and everything went downhill from there. Lied about doing my homework almost everyday for the rest of my school years. School wasn't helping me understand jacksh*t about my emotions and life.
* have you experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult.
I became suicidal at 13, told my mom and she had me lectured by a psychiatrist. I've had horrific nightmares my entire life, for the most part I've been chronically depressed. And have felt the deepest feelings of loneliness too many times. Had panic attacks my whole life and didn't realize this til I was older.
* Do you have difficulty in service-oriented jobs - resistance to authority and caste system of employment.
Yes. The snotty attitudes I've had to service were almost intolerable. Didn't stay there long..
* Do you prefer cooperative efforts or leadership position or solo if expertise is valued.
I prefer cooperative efforts but usually seems to work within a small group. I also prefer leadership if it's appropriate for the situation. Overall I'm mostly a loner.
* Have you deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity.
Yes, I've always been deeply empathetic but I've tolerated great amounts of stupidity.. with apathy.
* Are you extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) - to no expression of emotion (full shielding).
Yes >< Depending on the situation I'll break down crying or I can be as hard as a rock.
* Do you have trouble with RAGE.
More so nowadays yes and my anger problems started showing a lot more when I was around 17. A couple days ago I was flipping out (mentally) over the littlest thing. Swearing like a psychopath in my head. I had to lay down and relax and I eventually started crying and fell asleep. It's all because I've bottled up so much emotion.
* Do you have trouble with most systems (either emotionally, mentally, or physically)- political, educational, medical, law.
Yes.
* Do you feel alienated from politics - feeling your voice won't count and that the outcome really doesn't matter anyway.
I pay attention to a lot of it but I don't participate in board meetings and other such things, yet.
* Do you feel frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc.
Felt that for a long time..since I was 16.
* Do you feel anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you.
Every once in awhile I'll get furious over it.
* Do you feel a need like a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. But feel stymied what to do.
Yes.
* Did you have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years.
Yes! When I was a kid I was absolutely sure we were supposed to be telepathic.. and I couldn't understand why it wouldn't work. I knew magic was real but that was crushed quickly.
* Have you had few if any Indigo role models.
If I have, I wasn't aware of them being Indigo's.
* Do you have strong intuition.
Most of the time yes, but sometimes it seems totally gone..
* Do you have random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder), may have trouble focusing on a task unless of OWN choosing, may jump around in conversations.
I was put on Ritalin in 4th grade. Took it til 9th grade.. That frickin poison messed me up. I can focus perfectly fine on anything as long as I'm interested enough. I won't bother at all if I can't find an interest in it, though I will be open minded enough to try. I jump around in conversations all the time -_-
* Have you had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, hearing voices, intuitive thoughts coming through etc
Yes, mostly all this year.
* Are you sexually expressive and inventive OR do you reject sexuality in boredom. May explore alternate types of sexuality.
I have done both. I've been both extremely bored with it and also extremely interested in it. I'm very intuitive with the energy people give off and sexual tension, is a noticeable tension. In most cases it's annoying as hell. My sexual life has been mostly ridiculous, though I've learned, I didn't gain any love from any of it. Instead.. I have to learn to love myself.
* Do you seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world you may seek this through religion, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups or books, or individually.
My whole life I never understood who I was. I always thought that my mind was me and that I have no soul. That God and Satan are figments.. in terms of Christianity which is the belief I was raised with though it died off early on in my life. My understanding of the world was morbid and twisted. Filled with absolute sorrow and misery. Fleeting moments of happiness. But as a kid I always knew, that I was here for something big, something epic. That, or I thought I was going to be here to see the end of the world. As I have seen it in my nightmares. The regressive ways are coming to an end. Love, Light, Be as One.
Thanks 2InfinityAndBeyond and thanks Baron Cross for the idea