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Baron Cross · 10-14-2008, 09:25 AM

To find out if you are an indigo child, please answer the following questions honestly.

Being an indigo child can be extremely difficult. But it can be much easier with a little help from a few friends.

* Are you intelligent (though did not necessarily have top grades). YES The last time I had an IQ Test I scored 145 thats after my major head injury, I wondered how high I would have faired If I never had that major blow head injury, but IQ test is not 100 accurate keep that in mind. I probably hit my head more than 20 times, four of those hits I had to go to the emergency room to get stitches. In elementary everybody wants to be my friend during test time to give them the answers lol especially math, science, history, english, by the way english is not my first language. That all ended after my major head injury, after five days of the head injury we had a major test my mind went blank I didnt understand anything,I didnt remember anything I was dumbfounded I read over and over nothing, looking at equation nothing my supposedly friends asking for answer, I have no aswer to give panic , fear sets in, my first headache in my life sets in, failed all the test subjects, lost all my assume friends. I use to memorized long poems after reading it four to five, now even if I read it 200 times I cant memorize the first two to three lines.( sorry for a long answer on this question)

* Are you very creative and enjoy making things. When I was younger I was alot more creative, but am still kinda creative, especially if something I want to have that I think its to much to pay for it or to long to wait for it if its ordered, ill just make it If I can( example: I wanted to have a long table saw, so I can cut any 4 by 8 plywood any size I want, I made it with groves so i can use the clamp that came with saw on the extension, I glued a measuring tape,foldinng legs if I want to put it away, I never had proper training with wood working I just had the idea and made it lol)

* Do you always need to know WHY (especially why you are being asked to do something). YES

* Do you have disgust and perhaps loathing for the inanity of much of the required work in school, the repetition. YES

* Were you rebellious in school, refusing to do homework, rejecting authority of teachers OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure. YES YES I never did any homework or project if I think its dumb or not interesting.

* have you experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult. YES the first time I thought of suicide when my first girlfriend blamed me for something I didnt do and took her friends side over my side I thought she loved me so I broke it off and didnt talk to her for a long time I had to see her again because one of my best friend is her older brother.( 4 to 5 months I didnt see my friend because I didnt want to see her) Now Im an adult I really dont care what anybody think or say about me, but It really hurts when somebody that you think that loves you call you name or go against you( especially family and your other half, your own kids I just think theyre young, they dont know that they are hurting you (40% to 70%) they have there own agenda to get what they want

* Do you have difficulty in service-oriented jobs - resistance to authority and caste system of employment. YES

* Do you prefer cooperative efforts or leadership position or solo if expertise is valued. EQUAL WORK YES I rather somebody else lead that is more qualified with selflessness quality,but I am ready to step up to the plate if nobody assumes the role( Im more of a loner, shy person)

* Have you deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity. YES YES My wife said people think Im stupid because I care to much about people I give to homeless, I let people borrow money that I know wont be able to pay me back(friends and family) this how I see it if I have the money and they are in dire need for money( example: Hospital bill, funeral, for surgery, maybe just to get by for a week for food) and I feel that they exhausted their option then I will lend/give them money, but sometimes I dont lend/give any money If I feel they are not telling the whole truth or they just come to me because they think I am easy, and they get mad so be it. IM more tolerable now to stupidity than before my major head injury, because I didnt understand then that not all people are the same, I was always thinking whats wrong with all this people, cant they see whats going on, cant they remember anything, do they have any brains then POW it happen to me, now I understand people more( Except the opposite sex lol) when I was brought down to my knees, having the worst memory ever, it humbled me, crippled me .(sometimes I think I was Punish for thinking that way sorry)

* Are you extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) - to no expression of emotion (full shielding). YES

* Do you have trouble with RAGE. I have alot of patience but if you keep nagging i blow up.

* Do you have trouble with most systems (either emotionally, mentally, or physically)- political, educational, medical, law. YES

* Do you feel alienated from politics - feeling your voice won't count and that the outcome really doesn't matter anyway. Not sure

* Do you feel frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc. YES

* Do you feel anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you." YES

* Do you feel a need like a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. But feel stymied what to do. YES YES sometimes I think I should run for President so we can have peace and equality

* Did you have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years. YES YES YES I have a story its upto you to believe it or not, I dont remember this because I was between 1 to 2 years old, I had a yaya(a person that takes care of me, like a maid) she just barely left me in the room (5 minutes) and I started crying in my crib/playpen so came back to get me but, she could not get in, the door was wide open but she cant get in something ( I think its energy or force that cant be seen, the light was on, it was night time) was holding her back and she saw two cats fighting( 1 pure white and 1 pure black cat) outside the window on top of the awning by me while I was crying, she panic and yell help my mom came upstairs and couldnt get in either, good thing my moms friend pass by to say hello that evening when all of this was happening( he said he just felt to pass by tonight, he didnt understand why he just had an urge to come, hes a Native American I dont know what tribe) so my mom called him up panicking, he tried to get in the room and then realize something is up when he coulnt get in, my mom said he started talking in his native tongue and started going inside the room slowly untill he got to me and pick me up and turn around and slowly got out of the room( everybody notice 3 person outside the room waiting for him to get me out, that hes ponytail was standing or raise up horizontally while going in and out like hes struggling with strong wind and the cats stop fighting and fled when me and him was out of the room. I know what everybody is thinking when they read this( its bull***t like i said you dont have to beleive it and I dont think Im better or special I am just like you Stained,Corrupted by Society in our own ways. I always tried to think/read what are people thinking when I was a kid, and I always feel Dejavu or been here before or sometimes I know when My cell was about to ring and know who is calling even now.

* Have you had few if any Indigo role models. MAYBE I dont know what to call them so maybe (Family Members) * Do you have strong intuition. YES

* Do you have random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder), may have trouble focusing on a task unless of OWN choosing, may jump around in conversations. hmm before my head accident i had the best photographic memory no problem staying focus, never wrote anything the teacher said or copied anything on the board always ace the test 97% to 100% right all the time, then teacher ask for notes or home work nothing to show lol. now i have worst memory ever

i think

* Have you had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, hearing voices, intuitive thoughts coming through etc YES I have seen different entities especially when I was young (5 to 17 years old) Ive always seen a ghost all thru my childhood they usually just passing by,but one time one of them actually called me by hand (index finger) and its the scariest of all ghost Ive seen my whole life. Heres another story lol It was vacation time my mom sent me,my sisters and aunt that watches us to my moms first cousins house in a different city(but they live outside the city I think because its like ranches) they have all kinds of fruit trees in the back yard mangoes, guyabano, jackfruit, starapple, limes, lemon and many more I dont know theyre name in english and they also have fish ponds and rice fields and they also buy and sell gold from the mines so they are pretty wealthy I thought when I was a kid, so they have this huge house rectangular shape, living room in the front ,then formal dining room ,two bedroom on the side in between the dining room and kitchen ,before the kitchen is one of the bathroom by the doorway/hallway which is about 10 feet wide,before the bedroom there is stairs to go up to the upstairs bedrooms (whew sorry I had to put layout plan) here we go its around 8:00 pm everybody just finish dinner and all the adults was in the living room and I was listening and fell asleep in the couch nobody woke me up and left me there I was 10 years old, so I woke up and had to use bathroom, they had dim gas light on the walls so it wasnt dark so I started walking towards the bathroom when I saw a Lady walking(floating) with a long white nightgown with long white hair in between the doorway from the dining and kitchen, I realized something is not right so I stop and rub my eyes to make sure I am not seeing things , she turn around and face me , she had a skeleton face Im pretty sure its a skeleton but her eyes were fire I cant forget those eyes and she raise her hand and called me , by now I was stunned and frozen in place cant move a muscle it felt like a minute but in reality probably 20 seconds,then suddenly I got the will to run to the stairs, its about a fifteen steps to get up it only took me three jump up and grab one of my cousins blanket waiting if it followed me and I still have the urge so I open the window p**s outside lol the dogs were barking outside and I hear chains being dragged while I was pi****g and the next day at breakfast I ask if somebody was staying at the house with long white hair and everybody looked at each other(adults) and ask if I saw her. I figured Im not the only one that had seen her. I still cant believe they left me down there by myself. Ive also seen an ELF not sure if that is what call it if you guys want me to explain how ,where just ask

long story

* Are you sexually expressive and inventive OR do you reject sexuality in boredom. May explore alternate types of sexuality. YES but only to the opposite sex

* Do you seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world you may seek this through religion, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups or books, or individually. Thats why im here

I dont call myself Indigo but I have pretty much all that traits, I think of myself more of alittle more sensitive than the average joe

I think it runs in my family not everybody probably 15 to 20 %

10-14-2008, 09:25 AM	#131
Baron Cross Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 24	Re: Indigo To find out if you are an indigo child, please answer the following questions honestly. Being an indigo child can be extremely difficult. But it can be much easier with a little help from a few friends. * Are you intelligent (though did not necessarily have top grades). YES The last time I had an IQ Test I scored 145 thats after my major head injury, I wondered how high I would have faired If I never had that major blow head injury, but IQ test is not 100 accurate keep that in mind. I probably hit my head more than 20 times, four of those hits I had to go to the emergency room to get stitches. In elementary everybody wants to be my friend during test time to give them the answers lol especially math, science, history, english, by the way english is not my first language. That all ended after my major head injury, after five days of the head injury we had a major test my mind went blank I didnt understand anything,I didnt remember anything I was dumbfounded I read over and over nothing, looking at equation nothing my supposedly friends asking for answer, I have no aswer to give panic , fear sets in, my first headache in my life sets in, failed all the test subjects, lost all my assume friends. I use to memorized long poems after reading it four to five, now even if I read it 200 times I cant memorize the first two to three lines.( sorry for a long answer on this question) * Are you very creative and enjoy making things. When I was younger I was alot more creative, but am still kinda creative, especially if something I want to have that I think its to much to pay for it or to long to wait for it if its ordered, ill just make it If I can( example: I wanted to have a long table saw, so I can cut any 4 by 8 plywood any size I want, I made it with groves so i can use the clamp that came with saw on the extension, I glued a measuring tape,foldinng legs if I want to put it away, I never had proper training with wood working I just had the idea and made it lol) * Do you always need to know WHY (especially why you are being asked to do something). YES * Do you have disgust and perhaps loathing for the inanity of much of the required work in school, the repetition. YES * Were you rebellious in school, refusing to do homework, rejecting authority of teachers OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure. YES YES I never did any homework or project if I think its dumb or not interesting. * have you experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult. YES the first time I thought of suicide when my first girlfriend blamed me for something I didnt do and took her friends side over my side I thought she loved me so I broke it off and didnt talk to her for a long time I had to see her again because one of my best friend is her older brother.( 4 to 5 months I didnt see my friend because I didnt want to see her) Now Im an adult I really dont care what anybody think or say about me, but It really hurts when somebody that you think that loves you call you name or go against you( especially family and your other half, your own kids I just think theyre young, they dont know that they are hurting you (40% to 70%) they have there own agenda to get what they want * Do you have difficulty in service-oriented jobs - resistance to authority and caste system of employment. YES * Do you prefer cooperative efforts or leadership position or solo if expertise is valued. EQUAL WORK YES I rather somebody else lead that is more qualified with selflessness quality,but I am ready to step up to the plate if nobody assumes the role( Im more of a loner, shy person) * Have you deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity. YES YES My wife said people think Im stupid because I care to much about people I give to homeless, I let people borrow money that I know wont be able to pay me back(friends and family) this how I see it if I have the money and they are in dire need for money( example: Hospital bill, funeral, for surgery, maybe just to get by for a week for food) and I feel that they exhausted their option then I will lend/give them money, but sometimes I dont lend/give any money If I feel they are not telling the whole truth or they just come to me because they think I am easy, and they get mad so be it. IM more tolerable now to stupidity than before my major head injury, because I didnt understand then that not all people are the same, I was always thinking whats wrong with all this people, cant they see whats going on, cant they remember anything, do they have any brains then POW it happen to me, now I understand people more( Except the opposite sex lol) when I was brought down to my knees, having the worst memory ever, it humbled me, crippled me .(sometimes I think I was Punish for thinking that way sorry) * Are you extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) - to no expression of emotion (full shielding). YES * Do you have trouble with RAGE. I have alot of patience but if you keep nagging i blow up. * Do you have trouble with most systems (either emotionally, mentally, or physically)- political, educational, medical, law. YES * Do you feel alienated from politics - feeling your voice won't count and that the outcome really doesn't matter anyway. Not sure * Do you feel frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc. YES * Do you feel anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you." YES * Do you feel a need like a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. But feel stymied what to do. YES YES sometimes I think I should run for President so we can have peace and equality * Did you have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years. YES YES YES I have a story its upto you to believe it or not, I dont remember this because I was between 1 to 2 years old, I had a yaya(a person that takes care of me, like a maid) she just barely left me in the room (5 minutes) and I started crying in my crib/playpen so came back to get me but, she could not get in, the door was wide open but she cant get in something ( I think its energy or force that cant be seen, the light was on, it was night time) was holding her back and she saw two cats fighting( 1 pure white and 1 pure black cat) outside the window on top of the awning by me while I was crying, she panic and yell help my mom came upstairs and couldnt get in either, good thing my moms friend pass by to say hello that evening when all of this was happening( he said he just felt to pass by tonight, he didnt understand why he just had an urge to come, hes a Native American I dont know what tribe) so my mom called him up panicking, he tried to get in the room and then realize something is up when he coulnt get in, my mom said he started talking in his native tongue and started going inside the room slowly untill he got to me and pick me up and turn around and slowly got out of the room( everybody notice 3 person outside the room waiting for him to get me out, that hes ponytail was standing or raise up horizontally while going in and out like hes struggling with strong wind and the cats stop fighting and fled when me and him was out of the room. I know what everybody is thinking when they read this( its bull**t like i said you dont have to beleive it and I dont think Im better or special I am just like you Stained,Corrupted by Society in our own ways. I always tried to think/read what are people thinking when I was a kid, and I always feel Dejavu or been here before or sometimes I know when My cell was about to ring and know who is calling even now. Have you had few if any Indigo role models. MAYBE I dont know what to call them so maybe (Family Members) * Do you have strong intuition. YES * Do you have random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder), may have trouble focusing on a task unless of OWN choosing, may jump around in conversations. hmm before my head accident i had the best photographic memory no problem staying focus, never wrote anything the teacher said or copied anything on the board always ace the test 97% to 100% right all the time, then teacher ask for notes or home work nothing to show lol. now i have worst memory ever i think * Have you had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, hearing voices, intuitive thoughts coming through etc YES I have seen different entities especially when I was young (5 to 17 years old) Ive always seen a ghost all thru my childhood they usually just passing by,but one time one of them actually called me by hand (index finger) and its the scariest of all ghost Ive seen my whole life. Heres another story lol It was vacation time my mom sent me,my sisters and aunt that watches us to my moms first cousins house in a different city(but they live outside the city I think because its like ranches) they have all kinds of fruit trees in the back yard mangoes, guyabano, jackfruit, starapple, limes, lemon and many more I dont know theyre name in english and they also have fish ponds and rice fields and they also buy and sell gold from the mines so they are pretty wealthy I thought when I was a kid, so they have this huge house rectangular shape, living room in the front ,then formal dining room ,two bedroom on the side in between the dining room and kitchen ,before the kitchen is one of the bathroom by the doorway/hallway which is about 10 feet wide,before the bedroom there is stairs to go up to the upstairs bedrooms (whew sorry I had to put layout plan) here we go its around 8:00 pm everybody just finish dinner and all the adults was in the living room and I was listening and fell asleep in the couch nobody woke me up and left me there I was 10 years old, so I woke up and had to use bathroom, they had dim gas light on the walls so it wasnt dark so I started walking towards the bathroom when I saw a Lady walking(floating) with a long white nightgown with long white hair in between the doorway from the dining and kitchen, I realized something is not right so I stop and rub my eyes to make sure I am not seeing things , she turn around and face me , she had a skeleton face Im pretty sure its a skeleton but her eyes were fire I cant forget those eyes and she raise her hand and called me , by now I was stunned and frozen in place cant move a muscle it felt like a minute but in reality probably 20 seconds,then suddenly I got the will to run to the stairs, its about a fifteen steps to get up it only took me three jump up and grab one of my cousins blanket waiting if it followed me and I still have the urge so I open the window ps outside lol the dogs were barking outside and I hear chains being dragged while I was pi*g and the next day at breakfast I ask if somebody was staying at the house with long white hair and everybody looked at each other(adults) and ask if I saw her. I figured Im not the only one that had seen her. I still cant believe they left me down there by myself. Ive also seen an ELF not sure if that is what call it if you guys want me to explain how ,where just ask long story Are you sexually expressive and inventive OR do you reject sexuality in boredom. May explore alternate types of sexuality. YES but only to the opposite sex * Do you seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world you may seek this through religion, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups or books, or individually. Thats why im here I dont call myself Indigo but I have pretty much all that traits, I think of myself more of alittle more sensitive than the average joe I think it runs in my family not everybody probably 15 to 20 % Last edited by Baron Cross; 10-15-2008 at 03:49 AM.