I have had exactly the same dream as you OP. Except I always survive

. I've always had this feeling of "you must be prepared" so even when I was a young boy I've learned everything I could about survival.
I joined the Marine Corps for more knowledge then found out how truly horrible our government could be and got the **** out of dodge. I'm still very young (20) however I feel as though our resistance is on its way.
I have already organized a group of former military men and friends that I have met in Gym's and weight rooms throughout GA. We all know that when things happen we can depend on each other. I've seen these men in my dreams as well.
So we don't have long to wait for the bad stuff, I'm just glad I have lots of ammo, friends, and have taught myself how to fight with words and knowledge as well as with weapons.