Blue pills are for sheep. Your sheep days are over apparently. So fasten your seatbelt and start living like a warrior. Accept your fate. Don't see things as blessings and curses, see them as challenges. You can deal with anything, if you don't give up. And you don't give up even if it looks like you can't win. You just do your best and only care about the quality of your actions, not worrying about the outcome.
If you want some uplifting stuff, read this manual
http://www.soulwise.net/et-101.htm and watch the second Zeitgeist movie.
Don't worry about the chaos around you. For a new world to be created, the old, corrupted one must die. Let it die...