don't worry kimme i know exactly how you feel. But the main thing you should know is not to never give up until it is over. and even if it is over its still not over. recently my little brother (he already has down sydrome and one lung) brother had a severe case of leukemia. it was the worst time in my entire life. it felt like my family just had to sit and watch him die. he lost more weight than you can imagine it made me feel sick. his favorite hobby is eating he's a fat ass lol. So to see him not eating was devastating to me and my family. the one lung that he did have had become filled with fluid. he was on and off of life support several times they were going to pull the plug plenty of times but we were not ready to let go so we did not do it. do not always listen to the doctors listen to your inner self and make dissisions. well to make a long story short they said he was going to die, so we decided to take him home and let him die with us if he was goin to kick the bucket. one night i went in his room while he was sleep and put my hand on his head and as the powers that be to give me the powers to heal him of his illness. and to my suprise he has been in recessio ever since. i never thought it was me why he was not sick any more i thought it was the kemo-therpy. so did my whole family and it probably was who knows. but one day i went to get a tarrot card reading for the first time and the lady kept dealing a healer card and she kept telling me that i was a healer. and thats the only time i can remember me trying to heal anyone. but stay strong and try to keep your mother strong stay with her alot in the hospital. talk to her play with just enjoy this time with her. and everything will be a o.k. love is always in the air
