Totally agree with you XMEN your message resonated with me at least.
I feel i have been preparing for this for a long time, i have a family with grandchildren as well i would not like to see them suffer i would lay down my life for them this life for me has become but an existance.
I have had a calling for some many years now and i know my life here is just but an existance not really living as i know life anyway.
I have tried to tell my family many times that perhaps! i say perhaps because no one really knows what is going to happen in the coming months or years but it has all fell on deaf ears.
I hoped my children would have a spark of something in them that i share with a deeper understanding, but it seems they do not.
i get very upset when i see them always striving for the next thing, new car new house, holidays etc. I wish they could see past this materialistic world.
They have not been spoilt as children, we have always lived on a fixed budget so to speak, but this fascination of wealth being the overall benefactor makes me angry.
They are good kids (adults now) and my mother love goes out to then but hand on my heart if i'm given the option to leave this planet what ever way and time it takes place i will, because i feel i'm dying here anyway, i so want to go home now my heart is heavy, the only thing that keeps me going sometimes is to know that there are a great bunch of people out there on this site feeling the same
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