Greetings Xmen! I read your post yesterday and I've since been considering how to respond. Please realize that there are many here who are on a fast track to waking up... this can be a road fraught with all sorts of emotions, including fear. There are others, like myself, who have been on this road for quite awhile longer and have worked through much of the emotions (and this is not to suggest I don't still have moments, but they pass more quickly).
It is also true that many here are making plans to relocate, but there are others with fewer resources and they are focused on starting from where they are, networking with others locally, finding ways to live more intentionally -- all this is possible and more.
I'd like to respectfully suggest that you found what you were looking for (in a sense)... you confirmed your expectations and perhaps that's what you needed at that moment. Please stay and explore more, there is great wisdom coalescing here, there is much to learn.
Peace
