Roland -
Please hear me. I really want to clarify to you that I took absolutely zero offense whatsoever to you my friend, and had NO intention of condescending you. If that's what you perceived, I'll take responsibility for the limitations of my ability to express my myself properly, and also the constrictions of the medium we are communicating on.
Words on a computer screen can be drastically inadequate to express ourselves sometimes, so maybe I should have used more smilies or something - LOL. Just imagine me smiling and laughing constantly while you read this, because that's how I typically speak
Well intended inside jokes told with a big smile can certainly seem like less than benevolent or even condescending when all we have to judge them are the words...
For me, forums are a vehicle to make something happen in real life rather than become absorbed with, which is another reason why I am creating active community with people who resonate to the same ideas and know each other rather than flexing mental muscle on the internet... these types of bizarre misunderstandings are a wonderful example of why I don't spend a great deal of time on forums :P
The long diatribe post I made was not only an attempt to perhaps point you to some belief patterns that may not be serving you, but also an excercise in examining my own beliefs behind what you were communicating, because
in my past I very much identified with what you are saying. Any projections that you received as anything less than addressing you as a complete equal and friend were not intended in the least
But I don't want to be attracting people to lecture to in any regard, if that is indeed what you are imagining. In fact I don't even want to be acknowledged for being smart or anything like that. If anything I am desiring
teachers and more friends -
equal partners in helping each other along our chosen paths, which is what the meetings I have been holding are intended for. Should any of the speculated negative potentials manifest (like losing electronic means of communication), I am working to make sure I don't get caught with my pants down because I didn't meet people when the opportunity was available. You are more than welcome to join the meetings I have been hosting whenever and if-ever you feel compelled (and this also goes for anyone else who happens to be reading).
The servant in me wants to say that if I provoked the perception of being condescending, offended or arrogant,
please accept my apologies... however, the healer in me wants to point out that feeling those responses is
always your choice
The door is always open...