Hi Jan,
Indeed, money is no object for these people, when they have no accountability for their spending from a black budget.
I understand your need to understand what is happening to you. I have that desire also, to understand myself. Not to get mad or even, or bring about legal law suite against someone, but just to understand what is happening to me, my gifts, who I am, etc...
There are times it bothers me so bad, that I don't care if the milab people come and take me again, as long as they let me remain conscious and explain things to me.
Right now in past 5 years or longer, alot of the incidents that have happened, have been in person and in my face. Not dreams, or visions, but people standing infront of me, or chasing me 85 mph down the country roads, me trying to loose them, or as in the last few months, coming right up to my place of work and being introduced to me. "This is ---- he's airforce, special forces, and black ops. He's here to watch you!"
You just know they do that for effect! Just a name would have sufficed, but Noooo, they have to tell me exactly who and what they are! Next time, before I wet myself, I think I'll sit on the guys lap. Make them think twice about scaring the p*ss out of me. Yeah, how's that for effect......Sir!
About remembering though, I've never been regressed. Just what I remember at the time, or see at the time.
What I find best for me is to write it down somewhere. EVERYTHING, even if it doesn't seem to fit at the time. Because little hints, verifications, and other small memories come out later that will fit together, and you'll eventually be able to see the big picture. Or at least a bigger picture than what you started with.