[greybeard]

The ego loves "Victim-hood"
It gives you the "right" to be filled with self pity, to blame, to avoid responsibility, to hate, to judge, to get even, and on it goes.
There is enormous negative energy in being wronged.
However you get more of the same a you set up an attractor field which will bring negative events into your life which prove you have every right to feel sorry for your self.
All that is left brain function.
Been there done it got the tee shirt.
As you begin to get interest in the spiritual right brain start to take over.
The immune system is strengthened, good health, peace, and good things, begin to flow into your life.

Anthony DeMellow
Wrote a great book "Awareness"
He was a Jesuit Priest and his books were banned from Catholic Book stores.
He taught meditation and other things.
He said in the book that many of those that he worked with did not have any spiritual experiences during meditation but, with out exception ,the life of all of them improved greatly.

Chris