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Wyzyrd · 02-23-2010, 04:41 AM

Hello all.

This is my first post although I have been reading for a while.

I could almost have written Richard's post myself! I too have searched and dug and turned over rocks since 1994, starting with the book 'ET 101' and moving along to Jane Roberts, Marciniak, etc. for years. Then came the internet in 1998 and whoa! Andromedans, Cassiopaens - a plethora of information. I have been abducted numerous times. The paralysis and figures in the room, the domed rooms, the greys - and the reptilians. So I have been searching for a Higher Power for years. At the moment I am comfortable with having a Goddess figure to talk with.

I'd like to address Greybeard for a moment. I am an addict and have been bouncing in and out of NA for years. I just got sixty days back yesterday, and the group voted me to lead the Friday night meetings. This is new for me because I always would 'pass' and take off at the end of meetings. THIS TIME, I am getting involved, and it FEELS different. Like a connection to a Higher Power is being forged by helping other addicts, even if it is just something I share in a meeting. I've been hitting two and three meetings a day (I am disabled and don't have to work). I have to be careful about letting this become another addiction . . . but although I'm unsure of the path to Enlightenment (above links appreciated) I think I am learning that the path to awareness is simple: helping other people - somehow.

I don't know if I'm making any sense, and just rambling, but this thread struck a chord with me. I've read all the transcripts at Camelot (my computer is old and won't play the movies - new one on order) and have gotten a lot out of each of the interviews.

I've had email lists, posted on many forums, and generally was open and searching in the late nineties and early two-thousands. Then a series of events happened and I lost eight years clean and sober. That's ok - I'm back on track now and want to thank each and every one who posts on this forum because I learn something from every single person I read.

Thank you all for being here.

02-23-2010, 04:41 AM	#18
Wyzyrd Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: Kansas Posts: 2	Re: Desperately seeking enlightenment Hello all. This is my first post although I have been reading for a while. I could almost have written Richard's post myself! I too have searched and dug and turned over rocks since 1994, starting with the book 'ET 101' and moving along to Jane Roberts, Marciniak, etc. for years. Then came the internet in 1998 and whoa! Andromedans, Cassiopaens - a plethora of information. I have been abducted numerous times. The paralysis and figures in the room, the domed rooms, the greys - and the reptilians. So I have been searching for a Higher Power for years. At the moment I am comfortable with having a Goddess figure to talk with. I'd like to address Greybeard for a moment. I am an addict and have been bouncing in and out of NA for years. I just got sixty days back yesterday, and the group voted me to lead the Friday night meetings. This is new for me because I always would 'pass' and take off at the end of meetings. THIS TIME, I am getting involved, and it FEELS different. Like a connection to a Higher Power is being forged by helping other addicts, even if it is just something I share in a meeting. I've been hitting two and three meetings a day (I am disabled and don't have to work). I have to be careful about letting this become another addiction . . . but although I'm unsure of the path to Enlightenment (above links appreciated) I think I am learning that the path to awareness is simple: helping other people - somehow. I don't know if I'm making any sense, and just rambling, but this thread struck a chord with me. I've read all the transcripts at Camelot (my computer is old and won't play the movies - new one on order) and have gotten a lot out of each of the interviews. I've had email lists, posted on many forums, and generally was open and searching in the late nineties and early two-thousands. Then a series of events happened and I lost eight years clean and sober. That's ok - I'm back on track now and want to thank each and every one who posts on this forum because I learn something from every single person I read. Thank you all for being here.