Freedom fighter.
Firstly, this guy claims to have a cure. Watch it, he might be right.
http://www.brasschecktv.com/page/398.html
Wow, what to say to a dying man?
Look for the light!
Literally!
In death we create the same as in life.
Erm, if you see my nan, tell her to speak up!
Sorry mate, bit of humor there to lighten your load.
Alkalize the cells with raw fruit and vegetables. The body can defeat anything if it is given the tools. Look at The life regenerator on you tube for a better understanding.
But above all know that you did nothing wrong, there is no right or wrong, just experience. that is why we are here, to experience exponentially. Death is just another experience, although maybe the best one as we only get it once.
I pray you feel no pain brother.