Your certainly not alone with this Mystique.
Just like the baby to the child to the teen to the adult to elder has its various stages that happen in sequence without exception, so does the spiritual rebirth have the same. Anyone on the spirtual "rebirth" path will come to this stage you are experiencing. These stages or archetypes have been immortalized in the Tarot and in the Alchemical transformation processes, as well as other books such as the bible, but a little more allegorical.
This is a fun video on alchemy that explains these stages from the alchemical perspective... I had to go through quite a few stages myself before I was able to look back and say "hey... that happened to me in this same sequence..."
http://video.google.ca/videoplay?doc...69191085492326