Crazy position to be in.
'Should I stay or should I go now.'
Try a couple of different approaches with yourself...
Do you enjoy her company?
Can you spend long periods of time with her and participate in many different aspects of life without having to always have the conversation revert to waking up?
Is it your job to have to wake her up?
Can you enjoy your life for the rest of your life being with her just the way she is?
Can you enjoy every day the best way you can just the way you are?
As a person is she someone you want to spend the rest of your life with, or did you marry her because the embarrassment of backing out was worse? And if you were too embarrassed to back out, why would a relationship with another woman be any better or worse?????
And here's the million dollar question for the day...
Why would being with an enlightened person make your life any better?