hi Initiate,
Great thread! In fact I'm a little bowled over by it. I've had similar experiences I think.. or at least similar feelings that something hooks into me. No visions though.
In fact this thread I started recently is a good example of this in action...
http://www.projectavalon.net/forum/s...ad.php?t=19209
Here's a quote from the thread :
But that's just it... the frequency is increasing... and I spent nearly all day yesterday posting on one thread or another.
You probably noticed
Just wondered if anyone else out there has trouble getting off this site, or returns more frequently than they'd ideally like in a sane world?
Perhaps you can put your thoughts here. Don't worry, I'm not trying to be subversive here. I love this site, and the call to love for JennyG is just one of the reasons to feel proud of what we can achieve as an online community.
However, the nub I feel, is like a very strong draw to the New Posts page...it's like my energy hooks into PA...and I can't get out. It's ridiculous !
Now I joke a bit here about addiction to posting. But what concerns me is that after a little while at the PC, it's almost as if something else is benefiting by the energy I generate and have to give when writing.
In a short space of time I have gone from reading posts occasionally to posting throughout the day.. and the frequency increases.
Nothing wrong with liking Avalon, people say, and I agree. But it doesn't all feel like freewill to me...
Used to be the same when I played videogames years ago. that yearning to have one more go... it's like it feeds something else.. and you carry on with only your will until your body and mind are spent.
Who or what benefits? that's the question. This thread has a lot of useful infromation that I think will be very relevant to me. Will read more in full tomorrow. (see... I was going to bed at 11:15 and now it's 12:45....!)
I've already asked the Archangel Michael for some help...
one last thing before I go... I changed my eating habits drastically last year...and I think my energy was a lot more balanced. the diet has gone off the boil since xmas. So I really notice its effect.
Love n best wishes,
K