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oh yes ... i've heard the call ...
i know it crystal clear ... before i even got here ... this time anyway ...
this experience was different than all the others ... i know i was actually done with returning here ... or at least i thought i was ...
then the call ...
many were of joy of their call received ... sorry ... i wasn't one of them ... i know i didn't want to return here for yet another experience ... i thought i was through ...
but i was told ... this will be THE last one ... then i can return ...

i recall vividly ... all participants who also received their 'invite' ... to have come together ... a large gathering it was ... and then to be sort of debriefed of what was ... what this was all about ...

and i ... i was the very last one to arrive ... the straggler ... all eyes were on me ... i changed and took my seat which was on a floor of sorts ... and we continued ...

then i remember like a cyclic spark ... next thing i knew i was in the womb adventure ... nine months of darkness ... it wasn't pleasant ... not for me ...
i recall when arriving there ... i was not going with the flow so to speak ... i was going against the grain ... fighting it ... i wanted to return ... did NOT want to be there ...

and i remember what guided me whilst that experience ... the softness of the voice ... the interaction of that energy ... calming me ... teaching me ...
reminding me why i was there ... purpose and bigger picture ... that it had to be this way ...

what pained me the most in that experience is that i ... that i felt pain ... i hadn't felt pain in ages ... it is why i never wanted to be here again ...
throughout those months ... i knew exactly of how my life experience would be here ... i knew of the happiness ... the sadness ... accomplishments and also the challenges ... it was the challenges that pained me ...

and i remember being born ... i remember seeing our light here once again ... so bright it was ... and i remember crying then ... vocally what i sounded like ...

when initially receiving the call ... i still had a choice to come or not ... EVERYTHING was of free will ...
but i knew ... as much as i did not want to leave there ... i knew i had to come ... because we knew ... this was the one of great significance ... that what we create here and now ... will have been the foundation layed ... for all of future ... for all to come ... for a turnaround of what was ... that needed to be ...

the call ... and everything thereafter ... i remember so clearly ... like it was a few minutes ago ...
but these days ... i ponder ... was it just a few minutes ago ...
i ponder about time and its intersections ...

and now ... now i am very happy to be here ...