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Originally Posted by lightblue
hi onawah
you describe a very enlightening episode from your life experience..you also say that your sense of reality was shattered, but i didn't get the sense that you suffered from it..is that right?
i can see and believe when you say that you are disappointed to not have found out more about your therapist - but would that really be important?.from what i can understand, you have learned something about your own self which i feel was/is the point..
you also say that you are disaapppointed to find out that you won't be "saved" - is that one of the waysd your senser of reality got shattered? did you previously really believe that we are here to be saved, so to speak?
best wishes
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Thank you.
Yes, my sense of reality was shattered in a positive way because the experience opened up a whole new realm of possibility to me. I had been severely physically injured in the NDE experience and my body felt like a very undesirable, limiting and claustrophobic place to be. I wanted to escape it to live in a higher dimension, but I saw that this person, living in this very dimension, was at ease in his body and wasn't spending his life in an ashram, meditating and practicing yoga, etc.. I was feeling very sorry for myself, as I was still in a lot of physical pain, but this contact was such a blessing, I had to let go of that self pity in some part, at least.
Although I was frustrated that I was left with so many unanswered questions, I eventually realized what a gift I had been given and became grateful, and hopeful because I figured I must have been deserving of that help in some way. ( I had felt like I must have done something very bad which caused the NDE experience and the resulting disabilty, but after that experience, I was able to forgive myself more and take it all more in stride.)
At that time, there was much more in the way of guru seeking going on in the alternative community and not nearly as much awareness of ET presence. So in my spiritual quest, I had a preconditioned idea of what an Enlightenment experience consisted of. I was looking for teachers and fellow travelers on "the Path to Enlightenment". I didn't equate higher dimensional beings with ETs. Realizing that ETs, angels, higher dimensional beings, etc. were related changed my world view and opened it up in a way similar to the way gaining a better understanding of physics did.
3 D Earth also felt like a better place to be, if advanced ETs were taking the trouble to come here to be with us. I had been seeking an intentional community or ashram or some "safe" (saved) place where I could practice meditation and yoga and transcend 3D reality, escaping to a higher, more blissful realm.
But this young man had shown up in my everyday life without any fanfare, without me seeking him, and he wasn't wearing orange robes or advising anyone to renounce the world. In fact, he looked like a surfer dude!
So my attention was diverted from my notions of that traditional path of the past to something much more contemporary, pointing to a new paradigm and a much more expanded approach to spirituality. I relinquished the notion that I needed a guru and had to escape the world to achieve Enlightenment, and opened to the possibility that I was actually on a good path already, which gave me more hope and a better understanding of what living in the NOW really encompassed (and omitted-- in the way of wishful thinking).
It also gave birth to a new interest--in the Pleiadians. I sought more of the energy I had experienced in his presence and found it by opening myself up more to channeled messages from people like Barbara Marciniak etc. I took all the info with a grain of salt, but the energy was healing and I realized that even if I didn't believe everything, just looking at the possibilities of a more positive future for Earth as a member of the expanded galactic community was helping to ground me more in the here and now. I became more accepting of the possibility that I was probably not going to Nirvana --in this lifetime, anyway, but that Nirvana was possibly coming to Earth! That was very healing for me, because a lot of my emotional pain was actually on behalf of Gaia and the terrible disrespect I saw being paid to her.
I bless that young man and thank him so much for his appearance in my life. It really helped bring about some good changes in my outlook and direction.