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....It was the last time I saw him, and I was hugely frustrated because I felt I was never going to get to talk to him or learn anything more about him, and there was so much I wanted to know. An enormous amount of energy came up to be released and it WAS like my "sense of reality was shattered". I also realized he wasn't going to "save" me, and illusions about being "saved' had to be relinquished, much to my disappointment....
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hi onawah
you describe a very enlightening episode from your life experience..you also say that your sense of reality was shattered, but i didn't get the sense that you suffered from it..is that right?
i can see and believe when you say that you are disappointed to not have found out more about your therapist - but would that really be important?.from what i can understand, you have learned something about your own self which i feel was/is the point..
you also say that you are disaapppointed to find out that you won't be "saved" - is that one of the ways your sense of reality got shattered? did you previously really believe that we are here to be saved, so to speak?
best wishes