I have a very difficult time with this. Some days I think all of this is for entertainment, the next day not so much. I get confused and frustrated.
I need to start meditating again. Sometimes I fall asleep! ugh. Are you supposed to be sitting up with you back straight? I've read different approaches but find it hard to relax with good posture!
I've even tried laying flat....after a while I couldn't feel any parts of my body anymore...I had to wiggle my toes to make sure they were still there.
Then I felt like I was spinning out of control, like when you are really drunk and the room is spinning....ya, like that. So, I don't know...I just don't know.