Isaiah was the only man who saw God sitting on a throne on high and lifted up. His first words were: "Woe is me; I am undone."
People, all conscious beings, reach out for what they need, through what they say. It doesn't mean they are lying.
I use the word "Creator" around here a lot, because when you say "God" many people get squirmy, and run away.
I have not lived your life, or Green's, so I'm not in a position to say much. There are no points for deciding between God and anyone, and besides God doesn't "need anything". Never did.
God is.
Probably the single most amazing book I have read, the one which went the furthest towards rectifying my own perspective (largely christian) with the rest of this stuff is called "The Disappearance Of The Universe".
On Amazon it's about $15. Used as little as $6. around 200 pages. I don't think I have spent more time, reading a book, and laughing over "Ok! Now I get it!!" with any other book in 30 years.
I will suggest this:
Whenever I am confronted with a situation where I think I have God "all figured out", nicely cornered, or when someone else thinks they do, or when I am uncomfortable with the notion they might, I remind myself to "Go get a bigger God."
No, this does not come to me immediately every time, or even most of the time. It's a process. but each time I do, I am confronted with the same God. been waiting for me there, all the time. Darned if he didn't get smarter while I was away.
And each time there is a faint sound of snickering in the air. Given, and received, it's the sound of forgiveness.
Fred