Hi cosmicseed,
Welcome to Project Avalon.
Any healing work is based on the healer guiding the healee towards self healing through the healee's Higher self. You can learn to contact your higher self for self healing via a variety of mechanisms. You should take a look at
http://www.spiritual-midwife.com/_Br...ter_Index.html as this is work you can personally do in your own time. You have taken the greatest step of all in realising you need help. Now your higher self can step in and guide you. I will pray for your higher self to get in touch with you.