What kind of god are they serving that would demand worship or cast you into eternal torture, just for the crime of being born?! 
"This book filled the darkness with ghouls and ghosts, and the bodies of men and women with devils. This book polluted the souls of men with the infamous dogma of eternal pain. This book made credulity the greatest of virtues, and investigation the greatest of crimes. This book filled nations with hermits, monks and nuns - with the pious and the useless. This book placed the ignorant and unclean saint above the philosopher and philanthropist. This book taught man to despise the joys of this life, that he might be happy in another - to waste this world for the sake of the next. 
I attack this book because it is the enemy of human liberty - the greatest obstruction across the highway of human progress. 
Let me ask the ministers one question: How can you be wicked enough to defend this book?" 
- R. G. Ingersoll, from 'About the Holy Bible'.
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I understand your post , I can sympathesize with you since I have been through all that you wrote, until I relized that words spoken by Jesus and also you can find them by Paul in Romans.
I will say them on my way, namely many, many people who think, claim and are proud of being Christians are as far of Christianity as light is far from darkness.
Actually the worship Satan and 99.9% are not aware of that.
Bible is the wrod of God and it is not a religion.
God did not made a religion, man did.
God does not need a religion, does not need any church or type or worshiping on this planet.
He as Creator of everything does not need anything. He is self sufficient. But he loves, and that iswhy he wishes his children to learn about him and to be as him.
It is a path. It is not a religion, again MAN turned that into religion.
Why?
Control of masses and their time, weatlh and souls. 
The perfect way of doing that is religion,especially cloaked as being of God and his son Jesus Christ.
That way people will not suspect the real reason behind.
God warned us to that.
It is all over in his word, stories about that.
Jesus was also many times very controversial, why?
To shed off non thinking people of following him and using his help for their pleasure, selfish things such as following him to be fed and nurtured with nice stories(by their opinion). He kicked them off.
No one can cheat God. But people do try that. They thing by saying they are Christian they are one with God.
Wrong.
Jesus also said when he returns ,will hefind faith on earth, meaning people who are true.
It is not an easy thing being honest and genuine but it is the only ways towards knowing Creator and his wisdom and whatever he do.
Also Jews hated and killed Jesus because he actually enlighted their darkness of lies power freaks and utter controll. They claimed that they worshipped God , but they were actually Satan worshipers. They borrowed their ideas from Babylon and placed it in Talmud. That is what they did.
Also Constantine did the perfect thing for him but Chrisians who accepted what he proposed actually sold their souls to this world.
Utter control in the name of Jesus is the most powerful thing doen in this world so far to deceive people.
Jesus Christ and his own words are writen in the Bible. They are sheer and crystal clear.Why do people turn them around? They wish so because of their lack of honesty and fairness. They avoid the truth as it is so the sugar coat it for their own liking.
Sure you can do that but that will not change truth and you will be exposed a liar. 
That is exactly the thing reliogion did and they still do.
They are utter corrupt. 
Jesus said who has eye to see- let them see, who has ear to hear- let them hear.
No more no less.
Why should he or anyone else try their best to reylly explain people some things when they do not wish that, when they like lies?
Let them live their lie, that was their choice. But every choice has its repercissions.
Many will fall in the future when thy realize that instead they followed Christ , they followed a lie. When Christ comes he will judge. Not we , not religions not clergy, not people.
He will, and no one can fool him.
The one who started all this lie eons ago , will be destroyed.
I do not wish that for any human, I am sure you do not wish that too.
If you wish I will sen you on PM my reasoning on all your troubles since I had it exactly like you my friend.
Exactly.
But Christ showed me the way, out of this worldīs reasoning. The true way.
And it is up to me will I be genuine, honest, good person, wise, truth lover, a man, or I will be the total oposite.
I wish to be a man an image of Creator in all of his splendor.
Love and blessings,
Beren
P.S.
Sorry for typping mishaps...
