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Gevaudan · 12-20-2009, 02:11 AM

I've been here as well. I finally had to take things one day at a time, and not bother myself with what may or may not happen. Just as T3J said, when we shift our consciousness into the realm of probability and not actuality, we lose touch with the impact we can make in the here and now. Anticipation and fear are closer bedfellows that most of us would like to believe.

I had to finally 'let it all go' before I had a moment of perfect peace profound. It seemed that all of the worry about preparing for the thing that all the others could not see because of their 'blindness' was only blinding me in the end. I am prepared mentally and spiritually to handle anything that comes my way. I feel that if and when 'it' happens, I will know exactly what to do and how to go about doing it. It felt really good to me to finally be able to accept the things that I could not/cannot change, but also know that I possessed the courage to change the things that I could/can. (Stolen from the very beautiful serenity prayer that is wise on so many different levels.)

I have gone through 'shock and awe,' despair, joy, borderline insanity, apathy, and finally settled into a feeling of being able to handle whatever may come. I experienced ego death, but now have a feeling of being able to retain my individuality whilst still being a part of the whole. It is an odd feeling at times, which feels like being in the middle of two worlds, where I'm doing my job by keeping myself in the middle of ego and spirit, trying to keep the peace between the two and negotiating a truce.

This guy was onto something...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDaM9AHAqkY
Peace.

G

12-20-2009, 02:11 AM	#66
Gevaudan Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Charleston, SC Posts: 75	Re: Playing the waiting game I've been here as well. I finally had to take things one day at a time, and not bother myself with what may or may not happen. Just as T3J said, when we shift our consciousness into the realm of probability and not actuality, we lose touch with the impact we can make in the here and now. Anticipation and fear are closer bedfellows that most of us would like to believe. I had to finally 'let it all go' before I had a moment of perfect peace profound. It seemed that all of the worry about preparing for the thing that all the others could not see because of their 'blindness' was only blinding me in the end. I am prepared mentally and spiritually to handle anything that comes my way. I feel that if and when 'it' happens, I will know exactly what to do and how to go about doing it. It felt really good to me to finally be able to accept the things that I could not/cannot change, but also know that I possessed the courage to change the things that I could/can. (Stolen from the very beautiful serenity prayer that is wise on so many different levels.) I have gone through 'shock and awe,' despair, joy, borderline insanity, apathy, and finally settled into a feeling of being able to handle whatever may come. I experienced ego death, but now have a feeling of being able to retain my individuality whilst still being a part of the whole. It is an odd feeling at times, which feels like being in the middle of two worlds, where I'm doing my job by keeping myself in the middle of ego and spirit, trying to keep the peace between the two and negotiating a truce. This guy was onto something... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDaM9AHAqkY Peace. G Last edited by Gevaudan; 12-20-2009 at 02:22 AM.