Re: Playing the waiting game
Playing on the waiting over here also. Seemingly can't move forward in life whit "normal" life as all others I see around do because I feel something will come quite soon that will make it all null and void and as such can't be bothered to do anything worthwhile but sit and search for more knowledge to be better prepared to the changes.
But I miss a lot whit gaining experience in life which I don't like that much for the moment as I don't go out and do much.
The waiting has made me loose all contacts whit old friends I had, even if they were few.
Feels I should just go out and away to take a look at this "normal" life to have it as a experience but not plan to make it anything long time. Plan for it max 2 years?
Family is irritated whit my lack off activity, planning for future. But how can I plan for the future when I don't know what will come about even 1 year from now, not to say next month.
Looking at mainstream understanding where the future lies I don't want a itty bitty part off that!
Had a crisis about that in my teens but luckily managed to calm myself whit just deciding to wait and see where things go, in the mean time I have taken my steps up to here feeling a lot better whit gaining new understandings and knowledges but I lack loads of life experience whit things, basically non existential.
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