Dear Spregovori,
I think this has nothing to do philosophical debate.
You are just depressed for what ever the reason is
It will not cure unless you start found something that
makes you feel better.
Depression has something to teach us, so i am not saying its not valid experience. But it should be just it, experience and then move to next thing
in your life.
So if you found anything that makes you feel better do it.
Chill out!
Keep a break of those things that depress you, will ya ?
You are great!
Love and peace
K
