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Originally Posted by FIIISH
The tricky part of all of this for me is trying to make decisions and plan
for the future when the future seems completely up in the air.
Everyone around me is carrying on as normal, and sometimes I wonder
if I am just a deluded fool that bought into a fantasy just to
give myself a reason to carry on...
But then I think of some of the experiences I have had and continue to have,
and what I sense in addition to all the change we see happening...
The shift is happening NOW, and will continue to accelerate as we move forward. I think this means that things will continue to get more interesting, and at times, intens
It's a tricky thing, deciding which future to plan for:
business as usual, or a completely new paradigm?
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I SOOO feel ya Fiish... Wow what a ride hey?... Instincts tell me to get rid of everything... I have been, but is it the right choice? All my friends are married with kids but I've always known in my heart that it's not the way... Not my way anyhow. So here I am 36yrs old trying to dwindle down to being able to live out of a backpack... Seems right... But is it? Sometimes I see what I am missing out on in the 'meantime' and I wish I could do it but something keeps telling me I`m on the right track even when I feel I`m not. We`re all here for a reason... That which I`m not sure of yet but I just cruise along with the flow knowing that if things don`t change I can always pull a Thelma and Louise and go out with a bang. I will go ride the biggest wave, jump out of airplanes, and do all the crazy things I would not think possible until I just don`t make it... Cause I can`t fathom making it in the world we live in now. The world we live in now is the sole reason I don`t have children, as much as I`d love to have them. I see the joy that they bring to parents and it kills me... but I refuse to have children seeing how much the world has changed for the worse in my own lifetime. My own lifetime is a speck in comparison... Where are we headed? I don't want to risk it, I would love my children too much to bring them into this at this moment.
PS... I vote for completely new paradigm!!!