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indeed ... everything for me has changed beginning about three years ago ... primarily this year ...

it is like i took a rollercoaster ride ... experienced a few 360's ... losing everything i had in my pockets ... watched everything i thought was ... fall to the ground ... but knowing ... i could not stop the rollercoaster to pick that of which was mine up ... had to leave all where it fell ... and continue on with the ride ... rollercoaster stopped and i was glad to see a couple of things remained with me ... everything else had changed ... or fallen away ...

and i am not the person i was three years ago ... not even a year or a month ago ...

sometimes ... when we experience profound changes ... to our behavior ... our personality ... our likes and our dislikes ...
and our relationships ... we wonder how this can be ...
but really ... all we can do is be who we are realizing we really are ... and keep moving forward ... one step at a time ... being ok with our self changes ...

all part of the big pic i feel ... all part of no longer living pretentiously as we have been ... but living longer and more fulfilling life experiences ...

go with the flow i always say ...
sometimes not effortless and leaves us scratching our heads as to the logic of it all ...
forget the logic ... go with the heart ...

the heart will never lead us astray ...

yeah ... i am not who i once was ... can't even begin writing of all the changes ...
and the changes ... they continue to be ... and will be neverending from here on in ...

go with the flow of change ...
follow your heart ... it knows where its going ...
if changes feel true and right ... you are exactly where you are meant to be ...
how you are meant to be ...