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Originally Posted by Paul.T.
I began to open my eyes less than a year ago. Since then I have learned about the Illuminati, builderbergs and NWO, followed by ancient cults and civilizations that started them and alien biengs that spawned the whole thing on this planet we call earth. I am learning about the way the universe works and the spirit within us all, the vast amounts of free energy technology that we once had during Atlantis and now is a secret. Mayans, Hopis, Pliedians, greys, Annunaki, etc.
Everything I have read and watched has opened my eyes and made me ask more questions. follow more trails. But I feel i am getting more and more confused and pulled into 19.5 different directions.!!
How do the seasoned members here handle the vast and wide variety of "The Big Picture" with so many diferent subjects and topics and my curious nature, it's a recipe for mental meltdown.
I really would appreciate any feedback, for i seem to have not gotten an owners operating manual for this body when I was born.
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Paul,
I am going to call the authorities because you are stealing my life.
I don't think I have ever read anything that mirrors my own life more than this post and what you have gone through in the last year. I was just a little shocked, to say the least when I read this and realized that my life has unfolded in the
exact same way as yours has since the beginning of this year.
I am not kidding or exaggerating at all! I honestly went through those same series of events that you did in the exact same order of discovery. It might be possible that I am slightly further along that you are, but certainly not by much!
Because I too am a huge seeker of knowledge, I have gone through the same mental processes that you have for some time now. The only thing that I have done to cope is just keep gathering as much info as I possibly can and keeping the things that resonate with me and discarding the things that don't.
Based upon where you are at in your journey at this time, you might want to have a look at A'sha-yana Deane's website and material. Assuming of course that you are not already familiar with her. She has written three different books that can be a challenging read, but I think it explains what is going on well, in this so-called "Earth drama" we are experiencing. Here is her website, for starters...
http://www.azuritepress.com/
It's possible that this material will not resonate with you, but that is a chance I am willing to take because I have a sneaky suspicion that it will.
Also, it's helpful to realize that in the grand scheme of things, all of this stuff is very small and constitutes only a very small portion of our true lives. Since we are eternal beings, it helps me to sometimes stop thinking about things, take a lot of slow deep breaths and consciously understand that no matter what happens, I am going to be OK. No matter what the outcome of all this is, we all have a part to play and when our life is done here, we have many, many more journeys to go on. It's one thing to know this in the back of your mind and it's something else entirely to
live this. This is something I have to keep reminding myself all the time.
If you need any further assistance or advice, don't hesitate to contact me through PM.
